I woke up this morning and still didnt know what to make of this ring on my hand. I had my class ring there before so it wasnt just not being used to having a ring there. Its just that it has sooooo many ramifications for me. This will be the second time that Mike has been engaged but he has never been married before. I have been engaged a few times and married twice already. There is a lot of fear in finding that I have made the wrong choice again. In my heart of hearts I know that I am NOT making the wrong choice but there is always that lingering fear of what if it happens again? The first marriage I KNOW was a mistake because I was 18 and made the choice because we had a baby together. It seemed like the logical thing to do. Ahh to be 18 again lol.... My second marriage was to my high school sweetheart that I loved so much and I KNOW that he loved me. I think that asking him to be a family man was eventually more than he could bear and he cheated and walked out. I am not all that angry about it anymore but I never saw it coming. I am just so scared that this might happen again. I KNOW that things are VERY different between me and Mike though. We rarely argue and we always make each other laugh. I know that if I need a hug or to just be able to cry over our baby I can turn to him and he will hold me until the tears stop. I know that I make him happier than he has ever known because he tells me I accept him. It is soooo hard to let go of past mistakes and old fears. Thanks for letting me ramble.
Angie
