I just wanted to let you know about something that has been bugging me for some time now. Well for for the short story. I am struggling very very very hard. I am feeling like I am working to struggle. I cant even put food in my house as of right now. I dont want my son to go even i night without something to eat or feeling full. I have gone several times without eating. I have been feeling very suicidal because I feel so hopeless. I have even though of letting Nicks dad take him at least I know he will be fed. That alone the thought of not having my son because I cant do what I got to do as a mother hurts and is killing me. Also The thought that I am worthless and that I cant feed my son is killing me. I am about to snap. I just dont know why I am here if I have NO ONE to turn to. I have no family that cares I have not true friends that care. So that leaves me to wonder why am I here?? My son go go live with his dad and at least I will know that he will have food in his tummy and as for me......who cares.....So I dont know what is going to happen tonight. I cant handle another fight with my dad that goes along with the daily struggle so I dont know if you will hear from me agian or not. I truly dont know. So for those who care......I love you and take care of you family.
~Tanya~
