Darkstarr's blog: "This is me"

I hate the way you look at me With Love and so much trust The Demon inside waits for your soul I am the one who takes control You don’t know Love I am Satan The Devil from within I am destined to live alone Love none but my own Days I wish you were real To hold my heart close But your just inside me Alone I am to walk this Earth The End 20081021 Jason M. Christilaw

Funny how the papers so bright I often wonder if Jim felt the same I live to write I write to live Hold me sweetheart Difficult to find my groove Two weeks six days I fear my self I wanted this I wanted you The pen bleeds I bleed You and my heart in contempt Fuck this is hard tonight I want to fall Most of my writings hold meaning Tonight I feel nothing And yet I write To you Whatever your name is Who ever you are tonight And who am I Where the fuck am I going Don’t love me I can’t Not tonight This is shit Hate me tonight as I do FUCK ME Fuck this life The End Is It??? Jason M. Christilaw 20081021

Time gathers close as I write our song Soon love I'll be gone Hold me Love me Never trust me I whisper into the wind I miss you I miss your touch I'm to far gone now I love you You never here my words What happened to us To build distrust Hold me again as I fade away Lucifer sounds again Jason M. Christilaw 20081012

Fall away from myself where shall I hide Run like the wind Find myself hiding where are you Hello from another World Where have you been all my life I awake Sentuial creations within my dreams Screaming orgasims so it seems Let me sleep a little longer I miss you I touch you Delicate breasts Ivory skin Pearcing eyes looking within So soft and sweet Your Love to meet Long legs of sex and sweat Mind has nothing to regret We meet in a street Here or there I hold heart for Love Forever and always The End (To My Unfound Love) Jason M. Christilaw

Find my soul I'll fill the hole I will not drop one more tear for you My unspoken love My heart will bleed without you but I cant see your face Can not touch your flesh Who are you Why do you decieve me Why do I walk this Earth soo long without you Where do I stand Bled from the vain as I go insane She can't be right You must be out there She must not be right Where are you my love Why do you hide from me The pen lets blood Through the ink Why am I foresaken What is my path Your name unknown But destiny is ours Cut me The blade is deep I hold myself in distrust With no honer The End Jason M. Christilaw 2008-10-09

Shadows stalk next me Clawing at my soul Daggering at my skin Crawling into my mind Hope and Power Melt through my blood Fall from my being and leave a cold cavitey Demon laugh at my sins Screaming from within LET MY GO!!! but no voice sounds A cry from a child within Laughing at my sins Where is your GOD NOW Where do you stand ALONE AND AFRAID!!! but no voice sounds A cry from a child within Let your blood from your viens The Demon Screams Let it flow from your cold heart Inflame your Blade NO!!! but no voice sounds A cry from a child within Desolit and cold Tries to crawl away The Demon Laughs I become nothing NO!!! but no voice sounds A cry from a child from within Goodbye Sweetheart Sumble voice whispers The End Jason M. Christilaw 2008, 10-08

My life is like a twisted Peace of wreackage fallin from the sky I dig through my soul and wonder why Distained is the light and the ground I walk upon Distained is my mortal soul and the Hell it reaps unto others I hold myself dear but in dispaer I wonder through this world lacking in air Touch the the skin with no feeling Touch the heart with no meaning Touch the soul countless with hate Touch the God with no reapent Hold the body distained Hold the heart distained Hold the soul distained Pick your God distained Hold me close baby I'm coming home Dark dark is my passing Passing through my soul The End Jason M. Christilaw 2008-10-08