Tina's blog: "this and that"

Passion filled nights Full of velvety kisses. Caressing my body Fulfilling all my wishes. Loving me endlessly With all of your heart. Souls entwined Never to part. Now we are one... Emotions unchained. Giving ourselves completely; Our love never strained. Forever and eternity Blessed from up above. You and I... Forever in love

Why does it hurt so bad? To lose something I never had. To have these feelings and nothing to do. Just to sit around and wait for you. Why is it hard to move on? When all my feelings for you should be gone. In my soul when you are around. Your name is a beautiful sound. Now all I can do is wonder How I lost it all in a blunder. By not telling you how I feel, Trying to act like it's no big deal. Now I know the nature of my errors I just wish I can get rid of my cares Yet I know my heart won't let me Get rid of the person who fills me with glee. Just by hearing your sweet name Knowing my feeling for you are just the same. I must move on to a new life. Leaving behind the feelings and strife. I am only human and I am weak, But for you, there was a beautiful streak. I would do anything to repeat that day, When you hung on my words waiting to say. Now I am on a new track, Knowing that I can't have you back. No matter what I do or how hard I try All I can say to you now...is........good-bye.

Time is a scenery. No matter how long, you look at it, it's just not, going to change. Words are words. Sometimes, you just have to take action. Love is a window. So stop staring at it, and open it. Cause it's not going to open by itself. Anger is a door. Don't fear it, lock it, and swallow the key. Life is a wheel. Sometimes, you roll over mud and rocks, And sometimes, you go over rainbows, But most importantly, You are you. And I know you are wise enough, To tell the difference, And sometimes, you just have to chill, And Get Over It.

When i walk away from you mad [ Follow me ] When i stare at your mouth [ Kiss me ] When i push you or hit you [ Grab me and dont let go ] When i start cussing at you [ Kiss me and tell me you love me] When im quiet [ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ] When i ignore you [ Give me your attention ] When i pull away [ Pull me back ] When you see me at my worst [ Tell me im beautiful ] When you see me starting to cry [ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ] When you see me walking [ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ] When im scared [ Protect me ] When i lay my head on your shoulder [ Tilt my head up and kiss me ] When i tease you [ Tease me back and make me laugh ] When i dont answer for a long time [ reassure me that everything is okay ] When i look at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ] When i say that i like you [ I really do more than you could understand ] When i grab at your hands [ Hold mine and play with my fingers ] When i bump into you [ bump into me back and make me laugh ] When i tell you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ] When i look at you in your eyes [ dont look away until i do ] When i miss you [ im hurting inside ] When you break my heart [the pain never really goes away ] When i say its over [ i still want you to be mine ]

Time will come, Time will go But through it all, I'll always know That you're the only one for me And that's the way it will always be I dont' see how you can love me through and through after all I've done and said to you but you always do still love me And I hope that's the way it will always be When you "talk" to me, I always want more My wants and standards always end up having a war I want you to do so many things to me And that's the way it will always be I think of you every day, all day long Now, truthfully, is that so wrong? In my mind you'll stay with me And that's the way it will always be We'll spend eternity and a day together And be happy....Forever Cause in my heart you'll stay with me And that's the way it will always be I'm never ever going to let you go Because the truth of the matter is (I hope you know) That I'm in love with you And that's the way it will always be

I've got a right to be wrong My mistakes will make me strong I'm stepping out into the great unknown I'm feeling wings though I've never flown I've got a mind of my own I'm flesh and blood to the bone I'm not made of stone Got a right to be wrong So just leave me alone I've got a right to be wrong I've been held down too long I've got to break free So I can finally breathe I've got a right to be wrong Got to sing my own song I might be singing out of key But it sure feels good to me Got a right to be wrong So just leave me alone You're entitled to your opinion But it's really my decision I can't turn back I'm on a mission If you care don't you dare blur my vision Let me be all that I can be Don't smother me with negativity Whatever's out there waiting for me I'm going to faced it willingly I've got a right to be wrong My mistakes will make me strong I'm stepping out into the great unknown I'm feeling wings though I've never flown I've got a mind of my own Flesh and blood to the bone See, I'm not made of stone I've got a right to be wrong So just leave me alone I've got a right to be wrong I've been held down to long I've got to break free So I can finally breathe I've got a right to be wrong Got to sing my own song I might be singing out of key But it sure feels good to me I've got a right to be wrong So just leave me alone

You gave me a vision of what life was to be You showed me the world that I was to see You promised me love, said you'd always be there To lend me a hand, to show me you care We walked through the days never rushing our steps We cherished our time, for ours was well spent Then suddenly one day you weren't by my side You were gone forever, but not a tear did I cry. I rushed through the days by myself, all alone I cherished our memories though my anger had grown Then one day I thought of you, and a bitter sigh I sighed The long awaited sadness pierced my heart, then I cried I cried for all the empty dreams that people have these days I cried because I had a dream, but then it slipped away. I cried because a love like ours was always meant to last To endure throughtout eternity the present, future, and past A althought I would have never changed it, In my heart I'll always know it's true; A lesson learned the hard way, was the price of loving you

I wait and wait for you The minutes and then the hours drag by slowly I try and think of something else, but all my thoughts are of you I wait, longing to hear your voice There are footsteps in the hall My heart beats faster, but then the footsteps slowly fade away I wait, wanting to see you smile Then I remember that day The day when you smiled, but not at me Everyone wonders why I sit and wait I wonder sometimes too For fear, I wait for fear, not fear of you but of loosing you Everyone wonders why I don't leave you I wonder sometimes too For fear, Not fear of you, but of finding no one else I have waited, but will wait no longer I will no longer waste my time on you You who doesn't understand You who doesn't care I have waited, longing to hear your voice, but will wait no longer You have had your chance, and now someone else will call my name I have waited, wanting to see you smile, but I will wait no longer You have had your chance, and now someone else will smile for me