MZ PONYGIRLSUE's blog: "THINGS ABOUT ME"

It takes a Mother's Love to make a house a home, A place to be remembered, no matter where we roam. It takes a Mother's Patience, to bring a child up right, And her Courage and her Cheerfulness to make a dark day bright. It takes a Mother's Thoughtfulness to mend the heart's deep "hurts," And her Skill and her Endurance to mend little socks and shirts. It takes a Mother's Kindness to forgive us when we err, To sympathize in trouble and bow her head in prayer. It takes a Mother's Wisdom to recognize our needs And to give us reassurance by her loving words and deeds. It takes a Mother's Endless Faith, her Confidence and Trust To guide us through the pitfalls of selfishness and lust. And that is why in all this world there could not be another Who could fulfill God's purpose as completely as a MOTHER!

glitter-graphics.com I AM VERY PROUD TO ANNOUNCE THE ARRIVAL OF MY LITTLE PRIDE & JOY, ZACHARY MARK. HE WAS BORN ON MARCH 12TH, 2008 AT 12:26PM AND WEIGHED 7LBS. 13OZS. AND WAS 20 3/4 INCHES. HIS FATHER MARK AND I ARE VERY HAPPY AND I AM GLAD TO SAY THAT HE'S IS A BIG HEALTHY BABY BOY. THANKS TO ALL OF MY FUBAR FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR YOUR WELL WISHES AND SUPPORT. I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH & YOU KEPT ME GOING FROM DAY TO DAY WITH YOUR COMMENTS AND FUBAR LOVE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH TIME I CAN SNEAK IN HERE BETWEEN FEEDINGS AND DIAPER CHANGES BT I WILL RETURN THE LOVE AS SOON AS I GET THE CHANCE. LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME BUT IT IS DEFINITELY A JOYOUS BLESSING TO BE A MOTHER NOW. I LOVE MY LITTLE SON MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD. KEEP THE THREE OF US IN YOUR DAILY PRAYERS FOR STRENGTH AND WISDOM TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE CHALLENGES WE FACE. MUCH LOVE TO ALL ~~~~~ Susie Q aka MZ. PONYGIRLSUE P.S. TO SEE A PICTURE OF ZACHARY GO TO MY ALBUM OF HIM UNDER HIS NAME. ONE WILL BE THERE SHORTLY AND WILL ADD MANY MORE AS I HAVE THE TIME TO POST THEM. PLEASE LEAVE LOVE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

glitter-graphics.com Dear Fubar Friends and Family: Wanted to share some joyous news with all of you. Not many of you know this yet but I am pregnant and expecting my first child along with my boyfriend Mark so pretty soon we will be the proud parents of a bouncing baby boy whom we are planning to name Zachary Mark. We are very happy about this and I am glad to report that both baby and myself are doing very well so far. Had some rough patches at the beginning with morning sickness and ended up in the hospital for fourty days back in August/September because some well meaning but misinformed psychologist decided to panic and pull me off of my meds cold turkey so I decompensated until they figured out the best and least harmful medication to give me but I am doing very well now and feeling better every day. I am six months along now in my pregnancy and little Zachary is due on March 11th, 2008 or thereabouts. The little trooper is kicking away inside of me now. My little karate kid is growing everyday and so far things are fine but we would like it if my Fubar friends and family would keep the both of us in their prayers for a safe delivery and good health for the baby and myself. Everything is good except I wish my mother would come around and stop being mean with me. She's getting strange in her older age and we are not getting along very well due to her lousy attitude. Oh well, I guess if she wants to be the Granny then she had better get her act together or else risk losing out. No worries though because I have come to accept this treatment from her although it gives me heartache at times but I am not going to let her get the best of me for sure. Enough about her. Just basically wanted to announce Zachary's pending arrival and share the happy news with all of you. I will keep you all informed of our progress as the time approaches as best as I can with my busy schedule. Thanks for being my friends and for being a special part of my world. Don't know what I would do without this outlet so I hope that it continues to be available to me. I have met very many dear and special people here and it sure has made a positive impact in my life. Until next time be well and Happy Holidays to all of you. May God Bless you all richly is my prayer. Much LOVE and HUGS XOXOXOXO from Yours Truly, Susie Q "Proud Mommy-to-Be" aka MZ. PONYGIRLSUE

DEAR CHERRY TAP FAMILY & FRIENDS: IT'S ME, SUSAN A.K.A. MZ. PONYGIRLSUE, AND THE REASON WHY I AM WRITING THIS BLOG TONIGHT IS THAT I AM ALL TORN UP INSIDE. MANY SAD AND HORRIBLE EVENTS HAVE OCCURRED IN MY PERSONAL LIFE OUTSIDE OF THE CHERRY THESE PAST FEW WEEKS SINCE I HAVE BEEN AWAY. I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE EVER SHARED THIS FACT WITH YOU GUYS BEFORE BUT I SUFFER FROM MANIC DEPRESSION OR BIPOLAR DISORDER BROUGHT ON FROM YEARS OF CHILDHOOD SEXUAL, PHYSICAL & EMOTIONAL ABUSE AND TORTURE. IT IS A LONG SAD STORY BUT I AM NOT YET READY TO SHARE ANY PERSONAL DETAILS OF IT AS OF YET. BUT THE HORRIFIC EVENTS OF MY PAST HAVE COME CALLING IN MY CURRENT ADULT LIFE AND ARE HAVE MANY TERRIBLE REPERCUSSIONS INCLUDING BEING HOSPITALIZED FROM THE DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY (APRIL 2ND OF THIS YEAR) UP UNTIL THIS APRIL 12TH. IT IS THREATENING MY WHOLE SAFETY AND SECURITY AND MY USUALLY HAPPY WAY OF LIFE WITH MY BOYFRIEND MARK. HE IS VERY LOVING BUT VERY CONFUSED AND FEAQUENTLY MISUNDERSTANDING OF THE TURMOIL THAT STIRS WITHIN MY SOUL. I HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING AND MY HEALTH IS IN JEOPARDY AS WELL. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS FOR A POSITIVE OUTCOME OF ALL OF THIS MESS. MY HOPES ARE STILL ALIVE BUT IT IS VERY HARD TO KEEP MY SPIRITS UP. BUT I ALSO WANT TO THANK MY DEAR CHERRY FRIENDS AND FAMILY FOR ALL OF THE BIRTHDAY LOVE THAT WAS SHOWN TO ME RECENTLY. IT WAS OVERWHELMING AND THERE IS NO WAY I CAN PERSONAL WRITE AND THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR ALL THE THE GIFTS AND THE WELL WISHES. IT IS VERY GOOD TO KNOW THAT I AM LOVED HERE. SORRY I THAT I HAVE NOT HAVE HAD THE TIME OR THE ENERGY TO RETURN THE LOVE OR THE RECENT COMMENTS ON MY PAGE BUT I DO VISIT FROM TIME TO TIME JUST TO BOOST MY SPIRITS AND REMIND MYSELF THAT PEOPLE DO CARE ABOUT ME. THANK YOU ALL AND PLEASE DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME. I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH AND MISS TALKING TO YOU DEARLY. THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND PLEASE PUT THIS OUT TO THE REST OF CHERRY TAP AS WELL IF YOU CAN. I HAVE NOT THE HEART TO MAKE ANY BULLETINS RIGHT NOW BUT I THINK THAT OTHERS SHOULD KNOW THAT I NEED TO BE IN THEIR PRAYERS AS WELL. THANK YOU MY DEAR ONES AND UNTIL WE MEET ONLINE AGAIN SOMEDAY I HOPE THAT DAY WILL COME AGAIN VERY SOON. PLEASE EXCUSE MY NERVOUSNESS HERE BUT THIS COMES FROM MY HEART AND THIS IS VERY HARD FOR ME TO SHARE. BYE BYE FOR NOW MY DEARS. TAKE CARE NOW & GOD BLESS YOU ALL UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN. MUCH LOVE ♥ & A WISH FOR PEACE ~~~~~ MZ. PONYGIRLSUE

Ok Folks, I know a few of you may or may not have noticed that I have not been around lately. Well for those of you who care about me and bother to read my damn blogs you might have known that I took a trip to Niagara Falls for a few days but that is not the only reason I have been away. I am burned out. I have been facing some very hard times emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. I just cannot go into personal details right now because my emotions are too raw right now but I am taking some much needed "ME" time right now so my Cherry Tap friends and family will just have to understand that I just do not have it in me to return comments, ratings, votes and silly stuff like that right now. My life as I know it is in jeopardy right now so the non-essentials like that have to take a back-seat to everything else. I hope you all will understand. I will say this though I am keeping an eye on my page from time to time so all love shown is appreciated and will be returned in due time. Thank you all for understanding the pain I am suffering right now. It is not an easy time for me right now so all love and support and prayers are deeply appreciated. My birthday is rapidly approaching for those of you who have taken notice of the date. I was born on April the 2nd of 1971 at 4:50pm. Maybe that has something to do with the strange events that are swirling around me now. Only time will tell. Ok folks, I must run now. I am tired and I must take care of some important errands today so no playing on the Cherry for me today I am afriad so please do not try to shout at me today because I will not be here. I will attempt to keep you all updated as much as I can because there are many dear souls and people I have met here that I care deeply for. You all know who you are without me having to name you all. Thank you for being there for me in the past and I trust that the true friends that I have made here will continue to be here in the future. God bless you and keep you all until we cross paths again. I love you guys! Bye bye for now. Much Love <3 <3 <3 ~~~~~ XOXOXO ~~~~~ Susie Q a.k.a. MZ. PONYGIRLSUE

THIS IS A LITTLE GAME COURTESY OF MY FRIEND, POETIC ANGEL. I NAME 10 THINGS ABOUT ME THEN YOU NAME 10 THINGS ABOUT YOU. POE, YOU NAMED ME THIS TIME SO NOW IT IS MY TURN TO FESS UP HERE: 10 THINGS ABOUT ME YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW: 1.) I AM A VERY LOVING AND CARING PERSON. SOMETIMES THIS BACKFIRES ON ME IN THE SENSE THAT I HAVE A TENDACY TO WEAR MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE AND THEREFORE CAN BE WOUNDED EMOTIONALLY EASLIY BY THOSE I LOVE & CARE FOR. AN OFF-HANDED COMMENT OR SO-CALLED CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM CAN HURT ME DEEPLY IF I TAKE IT THE WRONG WAY. 2.) I AM A VERY QUIET, PEACEFUL AND A KEEP-TO-MY-OWN-COMPANY TYPE PERSON BUT THEN AT OTHER TIMES I CAN BE VERY OUTGOING AND A SOCIAL BUTTERFLY. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN YOU WILL NOT KNOW I AM IN THE SAME ROOM WITH YOU YET OTHER TIMES WHEN I CAN BE QUITE THE CHATTERBOX AND YOU CANNOT SHUT ME UP (LOL). MY BOYFRIEND LIKES TO TEASE ME AND SAY THAT I HAVE A SORT OF A SPILT PERSONALITY (LMAO). PERHAPS THIS IS TRUE. 3.) I CAN BE QUITE A FREAKY GIRL :P! I HAVE A WILD & KINKY STREAK IN ME A MILE WIDE ALTHOUGH I LOOK QUITE THE ANGEL. LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING, ESPECIALLY IN MY CASE - HA HA HA. I HAVE A TERRIBLY WICKED MIND AS WELL. 4.) I AM A SWINGER AND MY BOYFRIEND & I HAVE BEEN IN THE LIFESTYLE FOR TWO YEARS NOW. SURPRISING AS THIS MIGHT SOUND THIS HAS ONLY SERVED TO BRING THE BOTH OF US CLOSER AS A COUPLE. WE VIEW OURSELVES AS A TEAM WHEN WE ARE SWINGING AND NOT AS SEPARATE PERSONS OUT TO GET THEIR OWN KICKS OR MAKE NOTCHES IN OUR BELTS. WE ONLY DO THIS FOR FUN, AS A JOINT RECREATION AND ONLY TO ENHANCE OUR ALREADY EXTREMELY SATISFYING SEX LIFE TOGETHER. WE ARE NOT LOOKING TO REPLACE ONE ANOTHER, DON'T CONSIDER THIS TO BE CHEATING AND ARE NOT TRYING TO FULFILL SOMETHING MISSING BETWEEN US BECAUSE WE ALREADY HAVE A VERY SOLID RELATIONSHIP. WE LOVE AND TRUST ONE ANOTHER COMPLETELY AND WOULD NOT BE DOING THIS IF WE DID NOT. 5.) I LOVE TO SING. I HAVE BEEN KNOWN TO BELT OUT A PRETTY DECENT KARAOKE ON OCCASION AND RARELY SHY AWAY FROM ANY OPPORTUNITY TO SING IN FRONT OF OTHERS. AT ONE TIME I WAS EVEN GOING TO AUDITION FOR THE AMERICAN IDOL TELEVISION PROGRAM BUT I MISSED THE TRY-OUTS DUE TO A LACK OF TRANSPORTATION AT THAT TIME. OH WELL, GUESS STARDOM WAS NOT IN THE CARDS FOR ME (LOL). 6.) I AM A LIBERAL. I BELIEVE IN THE THEORY OF LIVE AND LET LIVE. I DO NOT TELL OTHERS HOW TO LIVE THEIR LIVES NOR DO I EXPECT THEM TO DICTATE OR JUDGE HOW I LIVE MINE. DO AS YOU PLEASE SO LONG AS YOU ARE NOT HARMING ANOTHER PERSON THEN I DO NOT SEE THE REASON WHY YOU OR I CANNOT LIVE OUR OWN LIVES AS WE SEE FIT. 7.) I AM A CONSUMATE PERFECTIONIST. THIS CAN DRIVE SOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE CRAZY AT TIMES. THINGS HAVE TO BE JUST SO FOR ME TO BE HAPPY. BUT SOMETIMES IF I CANNOT HAVE SOMETHING DONE TO MY STANDARD OF SATISFACTION AND I WOULD RATHER IT NOT BE DONE. IT MAKES ME VERY UPSET & UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN THINGS GET DONE THE WRONG WAY AND CAN BRING OUT THE WORST IN ME INCLUDING MY HOT SPANISH TEMPER. 8.) I HAVE THE BAD TENDACY TO BE A PROCRASTINATOR. I LIKE TO PUT UNPLEASANT THINGS OR UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATIONS OFF UNTIL THE LAST POSSIBLE MINUTE THAT I AM FORCED TO DEAL WITH THEM. I GET ACCUSED OF BEING LAZY AT TIMES WHEN I PROCRASTINATE BUT I WOULD RATHER HAVE TIME TO PLAY & HAVE FUN FIRST BEFORE DOING CHORES AND SUCH. BUT I NEVER NEGLECT THE IMPORTANT THINGS THOUGH AND I KNOW HOW TO PRIORITIZE TO WHERE I USUALLY HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR ALL THAT NEEDS TO GET DONE. I AM LIKE A CAT THAT USUALLY LANDS ON HER FEET (LOL). 9.) YOU WILL HARDLY EVER HEAR ME TALKING ABOUT CHILDREN BECAUSE I AM INFERTILE AND I CANNOT HAVE THEM. SO I LIKE TO STAY AWAY FROM THE SUBJECT IF I CAN. AND PLEASE DO NOT SUGGEST ADOPTION TO ME AS THIS IS NOT THE SOLUTION AS THEY WILL NOT GIVE ME A CHILD DUE TO MY MEDICAL HISTORY. ENOUGH SAID. 10.) MANY OF YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW THIS FROM READING MY PROFILE, BUT I HAVE HAD GASTRIC BY-PASS SURGERY DONE (IN JANUARY OF 2006) AND SO FAR IT HAS BEEN A SUCCESS FOR ME. I WAS ORIGINALLY 335LBS. AND NOW I AM 228LBS. BUT MY ULTIMATE GOAL IS 150LBS. OR SO. I HAD AN EXCELLENT AND VERY SUPPORTIVE SURGEON AND MY BOYFRIEND, MARK, HAS BEEN MY CHEERLEADER THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE. I CANNOT SAY IT HAS BEEN EASY BECAUSE IT IS A LIFE-ALTERING EXPERIENCE, BUT IT HAS BEEN A POSITIVE ONE FOR ME. BUT I HAVE FOUND THERE IS NO MAGIC BULLET WHEN IT COMES TO WEIGHT LOSS. YOU STILL HAVE TO MAKE A PROPER DIET & EXERCISE A PART OF YOUR LIFE NO MATTER WHAT, EVEN WITH THE SURGERY. AND YOU HAVE TO CHANGE TO WAY YOU LOOK AT FOOD. EAT TO LIVE AND NOT LIVE TO EAT. QUITE THE EPIPHANY I MUST TELL YOU. OK, LOOKS AS IF I AM FINALLY DONE WITH THIS LIST. POE, I HOPE YOU LIKE IT AND THAT YOU & THE OTHERS WHO READ THIS ALL HAVE LEARNED A THING OR TWO ABOUT ME. THANKS FOR CHOOSING ME TO DO THIS LITTLE PROJECT AND FOR MAKING ME THINK THIS OVER AS I NEEDED THE PUSH TO START BLOGGING AGAIN. LET US SEE IF I CAN KEEP IT UP. NOW TO KEEP THIS BALL ROLLING I HAVE TO NAME 10 PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS LIST TO PARTAKE IN THIS LITTLE GAME. HERE ARE THE 10 I CHOOSE: 1.) KINKY 2.) PHANTOM 3.) LIGHT MY FIRE 4.) KAZZY 5.) MRS. TRANYKID 6.) MS. THING 7.) WEREUSPEAKING2ME 8.) THE WIZ 9.) WATERWIZARD 10.) LADEEEE NOW YOU HAVE YOUR PROJECT TO DO SO PLEASE GO & DO IT. WRITE A BLOG ENTRY ABOUT 10 THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF. IT CAN BE ANY 10 THINGS (PERSONAL OR NOT SO PERSONAL) YOUR CHOICE. JUST NAME YOUR 10 THINGS AND THEN NAME 10 MORE PEOPLE OFF OF YOUR OWN LIST TO KEEP THE BALL ROLLING. LET'S ALL GET TO KNOW ONE ANOTHER BETTER AND HAVE SOME FUN WITH THIS, OK? IT IS NOT THAT HARD TO DO. THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS AND FOR PLAYING ALONG WITH ME. =)