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Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting thorough my open mind Possessing and caressing me Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes That call me on and on across the universe Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears exciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns It calls me on and on across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Jai guru deva Jai guru deva

my mother...

googled me. snooping!!! god damn i hate snoopers. especially when they act all high-and-mighty 'i know what i'm talking about it cuz i've been through it before' ... only it really doesn't work when your life isn't as good as theirs. it's annoying as shit actually. i need a hug. :( later.
So last night I had to have had the strangest dream ever... I don't really know the circumstances, but the whole country/world was attacked by either another country or aliens or something, and one of the first things they did was completely disable our electricity. 100% of it, which meant we were forced to live the way we did before it came along, with no refridgeration, no hot water *unless heated on a fire*, no nuthin. Soon thereafter, I [my character] met up with some friends, and we all figured out that whoever did this had a base not far from where we were, so we all took bikes and alternate forms of transportation up there to see who it was and why they were doing it. When we got to their "base" (really more of a cave that seemed virtually deserted), we found a wall with artifacts, pictures, and hieroglyphics, depicting that this was an ancient race that had come here years upon years ago, and was allegedly betrothed to someone on our planet, in present day time. We couldn't recognize the "person" that this entity was betrothed to, but were sure that we needed to find him/her. Eventually there were sides chosen, and some of the people that we knew, before the electricity was disabled, decided to join forces with this strange being. Searching everywhere, we couldn't find this entity's apparent soon-to-be significant other, and thus went back to their base, which appeared empty. We began exploring, taking with us things like guns, bats, torches, swords, and axes. Still nothing. We entered what we thought was the passage into their main base, not knowing that this was more like a very old burial chamber, with heiroglyphics and codes everywhere. We explored, and eventually someone brushed up against a seemingly unimportant part of the wall. This seemed to awaken the thing inside, and we frantically tried to get out. We heard strange sounds coming from behind us as we dispersed, trying to outsmart the entity. Next, we see a female, with shiny silvery hair, huddled in a ball on the floor. She wakes up, looks around groggily and panicky, wondering where the rest of her party has gone. She gets up, and carefully makes her way toward the light that she thinks is the exit. It appeared that a lake had formed in the wall, only made of a very strange, considerably relfective surface. Baffled by what she is seeing, she looks more closely at her reflection in this "pool" of shiny material. She is the betrothed. Back in civilization, they are all very tormented and disconcerted about the fact that this woman was left behind. One man steps forward, seemingly brave, stating that she was his girlfriend, and that they have to find her. Soon thereafter, some of the men who sided with the creature (we'll call them the bad guys) assembled outside of the good guys' base of operations. The were chanting and making strange, distinctly involuntary movements. There is a flash of an image inside the good guys' base, on one of the walls, as if there were a television behind the paint. It shows the woman in the cave, shackled and forced to be wed to the being. Everyone rallies together to try to save this girl, and heads toward the cave-like base where the alien-creature resides... ...and that's about where i woke up. what the hell?! geez, if i were in therapy, i'd be taken off in a little white jacket for sure after a doctor analyzed that... If you could, I'd love feedback... I have very strange detailed dreams like this about every six months or so, and if you want to hear (read) more, I'd be happy to put some up here... but I don't want to type them all out if noone's going to read them... I do love writing though, so let me know what you think! Thanks :D ~Squisha~

life is annoying...

and i really need a job... :P man i'm a hippie... *sigh* later sashaliane ::^-^::

birthday coming

yay! 1 week and 1 day! :) drinky drink later

asthma...

so i've been sick for like the past month, so i went to a clinic that's open on sundays, and they said i have asthma, and gave me an inhaler and this other stuff for asthma... ugh. that explains the shortness of breath while i was playing in that gravel pit the other week... anyway, now i use an inhaler. attractive. :P night

The Size Of This Country

So I was just eating dinner... well, attempting to anyway... when I decided to change the channel and see what else is on. channel 9: mythbusters, doing something having to do with a crapload of lard... channel 30-something: some other program about how fat people are and how much weight people have lost... channel 38: A show about that guy that richard simmons helped lose 700+ lbs in 19 months. MSNBC: what i'm assuming is supersize me, since the guy on there has been eating nothing but McDonald's for 9 days (and is already sick of their menu). What I noticed, is that a lot of america is overweight, but at the same time, there is a HUGE problem with anorexia, bulemia, and self-image in this country. I found myself not thinking i was fat, but just completely losing my apetite. I'll try again in a bit, when my mind is on something besides the images i just saw, but for now, i'm not hungry. I think it's rediculous how americans talks about being 'ok with yourself' and at the same time, cutting carbs, running 5 miles every day, and practically starving yourself... how are we supposed to be okay with ourselves if there are constantly contradicting messages on tv, magazines... well, all media really... I mean seriously, there has to be something wrong with this country when we don't even know what to think of ourselves, and our own images, because of all the mixed messages out there. I'm also annoyed at the fact that as a country, we are one of the fattest in the world. Yet our celebrities (and especially models) are bulemic, anorexic, or just way too skinny. Why is our country contradicting itself, and why are the celebrities representing us in the media nothing like the rest of the country? well, off to pop in a movie so i can avoid that subject a little bit more... later.
I put up like an assload of new pics... y'all should comment on some of em... also, i'm taking suggestions for types of pics i should take *no nasty ones, please.* anyway, i'm still trying to figure out how to get more people in my family... but not everyone automatically gets in, remember that. also open to suggestions about that... so other than that, I'm sick tired bored and going to go lay down. later.

Desperation

I am in need of dental work and if anybody can help or suggest anything that would help, I'd be GREATLY appreciative. *not sexually so don't be a jerk*. thanks. off to go pout a little more and snuggle with kitties. . . . . . . . . . PS: notice I NEVER really smile in my pics... my face was meant to smile... :( . . . later.
what is wrong with you people?!? do you really have that big of an inferiority complex that you have to bash on everything i do? get over your self pity, and leave me alone. to the others out there that aren't like this-- i enjoy having you as friends, and hope you aren't as easily influenced as some of the morons on this site. I'm a 20 year old woman. girl. female. it shouldn't matter. we all have the same problems and y'all need to calm your shit down. that's all for now. bye.
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