Been a while since last I was here and there's lots to get off my mind.......
Throughout our lives we go through life with tons of questions and little answers....some questions have easy answers while others may take months, years to learn their answers. And until those answers arrive we go about our lives wondering if the day will come when we'll learn the reason why we went through all the years of heartache.
My story is a bit different I have always been told I am an amazing guy and that any girl would be foolish to let someone like me slip away but here it is....once again approaching yet another Valentine's Day and the guy who is "amazing to almost everyone" is alone once again asking if I'll ever be able to give my love to a special woman who has been crying out for someone good to come in their life....bringing back the sunshine that was once there..... But to my friends the reason why I'm alone is to then it seems like I "look too hard" that I jump into things way too fast and end up putting pressure on the women(or putting all my eggs in one basket) cause.....well hell I don't know why they feel that way, I'm the kind of guy who plays hard and loves even harder,always has and makes time to listen and values input anytime....anywhere.
Another thing I'm asked is what are you looking for...and though most of you know what things I look for in a woman (ask me later) the one thing that trumps all others is the fact you are you are your "own woman" meaning one who doesn't have to seek approval from any man and can understand that I am (given the chance) there for you thru thick and thin,.....cause these days we often get used to handling "our" problems alone that we don't realize that we are not alone anymore in a relationship, what was once something we handled alone, we now have someone who wants to see us at our best as well as our worst, one who is there to support us when we get tired of fighting battles besides, two heads are better than one and having someone who you can talk things out with to face the day feels much better than doing it alone
What am I looking for in a girl.....hmmm this is where it gets a lil confusing see cause in one of my last blogs I wrote about being so close but so damn far away and one who responded to that appeared to give me hope but in the long run turned out to be the very thing I was talking about(who obviously wasn't paying attention) So here it is I'm looking 4 a woman who is not afraid of the love I have to give, a woman who will and wants to be a "constant" part of my life not one who comes in and out of my life every so often(that's the important one) someone who is not lazy when it comes to love and wants to be in love all the time. It's very hard to love someone when you're the only one that giving, showing, and meaning love when the other is not
All and all, I want to be given what I put out there completely without hesitation or regret......simple huh?
You would think that after all that has happened to me on this journey that I would give up (which is what some of you are thinking I would do) but if I did that then I wouldn't have learned a thing.....I've seen how love effects those it touches and how it makes even the hardest of heads believe.....so no matter how many more Valentine's I spend alone or holiday seasons (for that matter) I will continue to be.......a Hopeless Romantic who is just looking for somebody to love me like I would love them.....with all my being..........
It's the way I am....I guess