Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who
waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next
morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter
break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have
him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of
you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly
where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I
only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him say
how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our
tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this
time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We
listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking
about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even
snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with
no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just
friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing
more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even
though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time.
And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for
us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over
again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few
days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly
call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained
ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found
the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the
way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and
make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he
couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told
us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could
do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more
than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time
because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder
"what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening
to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during
the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he
deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you,
but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones
that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is
for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get
him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell
us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time."
Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how
stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling
to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell
their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones
that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into
their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the
entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was
going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one
that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved
like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave
a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again.
This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears
that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who
finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing
days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or
feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that
relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it
alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt.
Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to
look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn
the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made
& tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your
house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the
lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up
all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used
to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how
it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that
once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day
you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry.
You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy
that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like crap,
& it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This
is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt
all over again.
