Evil Fukin Zoe's blog: "Broken Hearted"

I Want to cry

I want to scream

I want to tell you mostly.I hate that im afraid of everything

I hate that your the one thing i want most but cant have 

I hate that you let me go before i even got to say goodbye

I wiish that you would come back to me 

I wish that i were strong enough to say NO to you

I wish i could believe my own lies I tell you to cover up the pain you left

I need to move on says my head

I need to hold on says my heart

I envy the way this hasnt hurt you at all

I envy her

I envy the fact that you dont understand what this feels like at all

I want to hurt you

I want to be with you

I want this nightmare to be over

I wish i could make things to the way they were before

I wish i could change time

I wish I could change you 

I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me

I need you out of my thoughts

I need you out of my heart

I need to start doing things for me

I hate that i gave you something that i can never have back

Im tired of hoping aimlessly for you

Im tired of wanting something i cant have

Im tired of hurting ME for things that arent my fault

Im sorry i wasnt good enough 

Im sorry i couldnt make you happy

Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me.for braking me.for not loveing me