I am a 40 year old woman from a very small town, I have grown up with those type of values, that small town people have. (You watch my back, I'll watch yours) So and so forth, It seems as though maybe I have gone over board in that department, I have taken so much of my time looking out for others and watching their backs , that I completely forgot to watch myself, in so doing that, noone else was watching me or my back either. I guess I don't understand at all, I thought all people , or most people anyway , when saying they would do things they kept their word. Wrong, completely wrong, or so it seems in most cases of these so called friends. So now I still live in this town where I grew up, still know most of the same people, or the ones that still are around, and None of them have the values that they had stood by at first , then over time just let them all go. Its all about them. I guess some call it Dog eat Dog!!! So I am thinking all the time about how I want things and how I feel about things, and I come to the conclusion I will still maintain these values but I will be more leary,and I will not just rely on people and just accept that they'd be watching my back , which in reality they are probably not. I am a good person, and I feel Genuine about my friends and family, and I still am old fashioned and have the morals and attitudes I had grwoning up, but have become very leary of people in general. Life to me is very precious and can be taken before we know it, live it as if it were the last moments in your life, with people you genuinely care about and love having with you.
Life as i fyou could die at an moment, full of things enjoyed and as if it were so new and fresh, wonderful, as it can be. God gave each of us one chance only I am making the most of mine.