Gigglezzzz's blog: "The Randomness That Is Me!"

long ago we were in love you were all i could think of now that time has past i wonder if were gonna last now only time will tell where we are going to be now in going crazy everything so hazy were fighting all the time nothing seems alright i dont know what to do going crazy because of you why cant you listen when i speak why do you always have to ignore me i feel things may be coming to an end wasted all that time we spent trying to work things out almost thinkwere better off with out really dont think you ever really cared about me i know i over react but its not just about that i feel like im talking to the wall you say sorry all the time but it dont mean a thing if you were truely sorry i wouldnt have to repeat myself all the time i try and talk to you about the things you do and you just laugh it off say your sorry when your not

crushes come and crushes go you will never really know who they are and when they come just as quick as it all starts it ends in a flash cant help but wanna fight but one will always be around every time your feeling down and thats all that matters now so forget the crushes and forget the lust its all just and illiusion

swimming through my thoughts my mind lost track of so much time never know the begining or end just write what comes into my head spirling out of control cant focuse cant think everything went blankgoing crazy spinning by at the edge of time so lost in emotions and thoughts never knowing where to stop shadows voices everywhere being watched constanly cant get a break cant get away every minute of every day theres a presence here i feel it now i think im going insane never change this game theres trouble every where we go nothing ever goes as planned things always get out of hand theres nothing more to do or say so i guess i leave now anywaysreality and dreams tend to mix slishing sloshing every wherechurning burning like the sea cant you get it away from me still cant think straight still cant see where im really ment to be.

so many look forever trying to find that one so many never see what could truely beim so glad ive found you babe i hope we never fade away like so many in the past breakin up so fasti never wanna leave your sidelove's not easy thats true but its easier when im with you 
i never wanna lose you is this love really truehow can i be so sure when others seem to want soo much more
i dont know if i can trust you your always so distant n downhow can i change things make you come out of your shelllet me help turn things around
i cant promise you miricles i cant give you the worldbut i can make you happy of that im sureplease let me try nothing in life is ever that easy
the good things in life take timethings dont just happen over nightif youll let me ill try n make everything alrightif you let my i love you forever if your not happy ill make it upeverything always for you to you ill always be true no more lies no more tears i will concure all your fears

open your eyes look around you cant even see the groundmoving so fast quick as can be everything is a blurr to metwisting spinning twirling swerling nothing coming nothing goingmy thoughts seem out of control i cant get a grip dont understand this worldeverythings strange it seems so unreal is this really how i feel emotions built up like a wall i feel like im starting to fallbarriers, bars, caged in feel so trapped trapped in my thoughts trapped in my mind have no reality of timenever know what day it is doesnt matter anywaysnothing ever changes here still be the same in 50 years

why do you let me push you around why dont u see how mean i can bei always tell you what to do expect too much from youbut your always doing what i say never questioning a day you let me walk all over you i treat you like a slave and constantly tell you what to dohow can you just take my shit so soft spoken never harsh why dont u just tell me offstop doing every thing i say stop letting me treat you this wayyou know its bullshit how i act yet you still jump up in a flash always such a people pleaser dont you ever have your own oppinioni dont understand how u can love me so much you tell me all the time you care but you should stand up sometimes not let me push you aroundalways falling on the ground nothings ever good enough i dont know why im so tough things need to change i dont know why i act this wayyou love me so much but its hard to see i cant think clearly its such a bad habit im trying to brakethings cant always be this way you need respect you need your space you dont need me in your faceso stand up yell and scream at me i deserve it i know but thats not how you rollim truely sorry i couldnt see that you mean everything to memy world is spinning off the ground i feel like such a clown i love you baby this is true and all i ever need is you 

been living in the past time going by so fast it doesn't seem like things changed i can still almost smell the sea remember the way we used to be sitting there at the park listening in the dark to the ocean waves as they crash against the shore peaceful, calm, nothing wrong pause this peaceful time peaceful frame of mind i miss you truely i do my friend till the end you're always there for me Jessie: people often fade away look the other way see someone they used to know hide yourself or run away hopeing not to have been seen hiding behind a screen almost like looking through a mask you act like you care tell me your my friend say i can trust you but these are just words from some meaning nothing these people think if they pretend to care you wont be mad when they stab you in the back proving 
Jessie: they dont care distrustworthy people they are trust is something earn and given freely to those that have earned it but trust fades away and all thats left is backstabbing and pain, heartache, heartbreak loss of friends and the people we care about