the pain i feel is overwhelming....
its eating away at me like a disease.......
questions keep running through my mind over and over.....
things i regret......people that i've hurt......
the feelings i have are to confusing for words.....
i loved one and yet i wanted something more....
the one i love still stands beside me....how or why....is a question beyond me...
the one i wanted probably rather see me dead....i dont blame you....for this i should be....
i couldnt keep it all inside any longer....
not only do i feel pain for myself and what ive done.....
i regret hurting them....i regret putting them through this.....
i regret not saying something sooner....
i was the one trying to live two lives...not meaning to...but i did.....
this pain will not go away....
letting it go is harder than people think....
something i never thought i would do....yet i did....
to the ones i hurt i'm sorry....
sorry might not be good enough but its all i got....
ive learn a big lesson from this....
i dont know where ill go from here....
should i stay or should i go.....
i dont want to go but yet i think i should.....
the love will never be the same.....
nor will that friend i thought i had......
nevertheless i just got to keep pushing through....
i'll get to the other side someday.....
