You’re in California for god knows how long.
You have only been gone 3 days and we have talked on the phone twice but only for a moment…. Almost every day for over 3 years you have told me it’s all going to be ok…
Now I have to tell myself, maybe its all part of the every thing happens for a reason to make me be strong with out you…
The other things that are happening all seam to be a part of this wired thing that is going on to show me what I need to do and that I can do it!!!
This will be the first Christmas or Christmas Eve in 15 years that I will not get to see you for at least a min… your ornament is on the tree where it has always hung so I can see it every time I walk past.
I told him today the tree is staying up till you come back and we are going to have another Christmas then… I don’t think he liked it but he knows I have to do what I have to do when it comes to you…
Hey you know more then the breath of life it’s self………..
