I don't even know how to express the loss I am dealing with right now...how to get past it...how to smile after I lost my big brother from a heroin overdose. The pain is real.  We were less than two years apart in age. I am Autumn Jea...He was Adam Jacob.  As adults we were roomates...he helped raise my son Benjamin....I helped raise his kids AJ and DJ....As kids we were best friends.  As adults we were still best friends until 5 yrs ago when he started using heroin.  I thought if I got mad at him and stopped dealing with him...he would clean up and stop fucking with that poison.  He was at least 1 year clean before he relapsed and died.  I have a hole in my heart now.  I will never be the same.  I hear it gets easier...so far not so much.  If only one person is saved by me sharing this I would feel like his death had a purpose.  Adam died 10:44AM  8/21/17 minutes before the eclipse.  I felt it before I knew I was about to ... seize out during the eclipse.  We were connected more than most siblings....

I LOVED YOU ADAM EVERYDAY OF MY WHOLE LIFE....AND WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I SEE YOU AGAIN!! I EXPECT A SUPERHERO NINJA ANGEL AND WILL BE LOOKING FOR YOU DAILY!!!!! RIP BIG BROTHER......