The Unknown Zombie's blog: "The curse of thinking too much"

I could not think of a better name than the lame curse of thinking too much.. kinda ironic if you think about it cuz this is a result of thinking too much and yet cant come up with a better title than that. guess maybe im the only one that found some humor of that but goes to show who has a weird sense of humor around here.amazing how thinking can lead to long ass things like im sure this is going to be and it ALSO leads to countless hours of sleep lost.. oh well sleep is over rated anyway am i right am i right? no... damn no sense of humor with this bunch.

I got to thinking about people and how they treat others especially those they say they care about.  I have seen it more than once cuz most of the people who call themselves a friend have come to me with their relationship problems and have told me what they are doing and what their other half is doing and let me tell you some of the shit i have heard that they do to each other would be down right horrible and yet you see them in public and could never tell anything was wrong and both parties would treat every one else with the respect that they deserve but when they got alone they almost hated each other but would not leave each other. I have often wondered why this is and the only thing i can come up with is a big I DON'T KNOW. which kinda made me think of how many people you see every day passing in the street how many of them are like that, almost 2 totally different people one in public and one in the home life. I understand that for the most part that maybe need in the public but that is reserved for a few like entertainers who play the part of being a dick so they are a dick when making public apperances yet when you get the same person in a more private setting or when they are in at home they are some of the nicest people you would ever meet. Its funny and yet kinda depressing thinking that because it goes both ways the nice people you see can be and sadly in modern time when the few nice people left are in hiding usually are dicks in their home lives.

Why is that, that most of the few nice people are in hiding and why are there so few left? Well its really simple and sadly i know from experience and more than one experience. It is because nice people are used and thrown away and the ole saying " nice guys finish last" (althought it goes for females also) is very true. You always hear about good guys winning in the movies but yea ummin the real world nice people get fucked. So they decide they are getting tired of being ass fisted by king kong aka life that they decide to go to the ass hole side of the world which causes the number of good guys (and gals) shrink and it is only the truly good folks are left to be stepped on and expect everything to be okay. its almost like being a good person you are destined to be shit on chewed up spit out stepped on wiped off the shoe and stepped on again. If you look at the people who have the most problems in life they fall into one of a few different catagorys. One is those people who want to try and get everything and try to surround themself with popular people just so they fit in cuz they are always feeling like they are missing something. Another group is those who have the worst of luck and literally everything that can go wrong will go wrong it is almost like murphy wrote laws just for those ppls lives. The third and usually the ones who are the most depressed and jacked up group is the truly good ones. you logic would tend to lead you to think that nice people would get the world but the sad fact is they get to see most things they want in life slip away from this. For an example to prove this point, any female reading this find a truly nice guy that you know that you think of as a friend and ask him if he has ever seen what he wants slip away like the one he has a massive crush on or really likes and is always there for said person but are seen as a friend or a crying post and nothing else while the female goes to one of the ass holes of the world. If he says never he is lying plain and simple..   Most nice people always fall into the friend catagory because they are "too nice". since when did being nice and a generally good person become such a bad thing? A nice good person is almost always mistreated and dont know what to do when they start getting treated good like they deserve. you will also find the ones with the biggest trust issues with this group too because they have trained themselves not to trust anyone because they have been hurt too many times and it is up to anyone new to figure out if it is worth crossing the walls and earn the good persons trust or not.

For all of those who just met someone who seems stand offish or like they have walls up and dont really trust many people, word of advice THAT PERSON IS WELL WORTH THE EFFORT. They will be your friend through more shit that anything you can imagine..i have been on both ends of this and found someone i not only trust my life too but love more than anything because we both worked to get past the walls and learn and see the real people not the one that mans the walls but the person that is in the heart. you know who you are i love you.

I close this kinda random thing with this. Truly nice good people are out there and if you know any consider yourself lucky and treat them good and get to know them better because you will have a friend until the end. Its a sad world we live in when the nice and good are used and cast aside like nothing and the dicks and ass holes get everything they want . Watch out the closet nice people will over throw the world one day and all those who stepped on us and used us will be wishing they had a time machine and will learn how it really feels. one word  is need to be remembered by all assholes, dick, bitches, ect out there and that word is KARMA.. karmas a bitch and will be around to collect soon..

thanks for listening er reading the ramblings of a sleep deprived closet nice guy