to say how i feel around you
The thoughts i carry so well seem
to escape me when your in view
i have felt every cheesy lyric ever
written cross my troubled head
Nothing but stunning exhilaration
when your lying next to me in bed
The hopes, The dreams
My silent screams
The lust, The fear
become so clear
The grave
Verse 1
Click click boom went the shots to my head
No time to rethink what i did, what i said
And before the blink of an eye
i'm floating above in a sunlit sky
watching them lower my body in the ground
i fell a thousand feet with a horrible sound
knelling before the devil's dark throne
knowning i was very far from alone
Chorus repeated twice
Welcome to the end, welcome to the grave
this is where you'll be my slave
welcome to the pit, welcome to hell
this is how it was when the angels fell
verse 2
he spoke to me in a menacing voice
as he told me hell was my only choice
i stood up to him in pure defiance
calling out to god for a final chance
there is no hope for that foolish boy
he said to me with a tone that was coy
you lived your life in the darkest way
they told you before that sinners will pay
chorus twice
verse 3
wait a fuckin minute this can not be
did enough good for the world to see
yes you can talk, but you can not fight
yes you can run, but you can not hide
they are all around yes all the time
for your every triumph and every crime
this is the way the world has always worked
sinners making saints go fucking berserk
chorus twice
verse 4
there's still a chance to save my soul
rise up from the flames and out this hole
you can not win until my spirit's crushed
my will is broke and i lose all my trust
i raise my voice and hands to the sky
i know i'm better than this let me try
i cant undo what's been done before
but i'm far from rotten to the core
chorus twice
verse 5
and with that the ground gave away
flames died down and god began to say
i saw how you lived as you went astray
but in your final hour you regained your way
stepping in front of bullets takin 2 in the head
so without you those kids would have been dead
go now and make the most of this second chance
be sure to never give this place a second glance
chorus twice
Written Dec. 23rd 2012
Poem i wrote called the crest check it out homies!
The Crest
I stood alone gazing down from a crest
when a horrible pain entered my cheast
i pondered all that i gained all that i lost
wondering was it really worth the cost
that's when the dread came creeping
realization of what i would be reaping
a lifetime of sorrow sewn in dust
ashes to ashes and so i should rust
if given the chance to do it again
i know i'd still lead my life of sin
begrudging those who had done me wrong
all for the purpose of writing forgotten song
so take these lessons to heart or not
taking the latter makes us brethren in rot
a solemn shadow to chill others to bone
leaving you upon a crest dieing alone
Hello interweb people's its been awhile since i have posted a blog and felt it was time to get things rolling. It's been a rough time going the past few years but it all hasnt been bad. I have truely found a musical and literary voice which i look forward to sharing with you all through lyrics/ poems i wrote feel free to leave feedback its the only way i know if anyone is out there anymore. I want to kick all this off with a song called The Pain.
The Pain
Tonight i feel the pain
of the scars
of the years gone by
i hide my shame behind my lies
here i am just a shell of a man
caution to the wind and a gun in my hand
starring at the world through bloodshot eyes
cannot lift this curse no matter how i try
end this world with just one shot
easy to do when nothings what you got
bridge/pre chorus
breathing not knowing
that my blood is still flowing
and the truth is a lie
so do i try?
chorus
tearing at my soul
never reach my goal
nothing left to gain
tonight i feel the pain
2nd verse
of the scars
of the years gone by
i hide my fear behind my eyes
as they start to read me my last rights
my last shread of spirit still trys to fight
why in the world did it end this way
no time to cry too late to pray
and as they start to nail my coffin shut
my last thread of life has now been cut
breakdown
and thats when i awake from the nightmare i created
i long for freedom where i go unabated
but this war inside my head will not let me go
i'm chasing demons i do not care to know
so sit there in your towers passing judgement
and leave me here alone to relive this torment
chorus/outro