I reilised tonight on the verge of tears that I am not me in my heart anymore(yeah thats right real men cry motherfuckers) I lost that battle feild fire. All because of something devastating that happened not to long ago. There is a person/persons on fubar who know exactly what im talking about. if you dont thats kool too because im making a point, At least I hope. I have let the fact that my heart is broken bring me to my knees. Its funny you spend enough time down there looking at the muck and the shit thats exactly what you start to feel like. But then tonight I reilised something, better yet remembered something about myself I had forgotten a long time ago, trying to be someone I wasnt for someone I loved....Im a fucking soilder. Street raised and tested, military approved fucking soilder! I cant fucking belive I have let the fire in my heart die out. So heres the message to everyone. Consider me the beast of burden, and pile it on heavy fuckers, because im never gonna get held down again. There aint enough weight in the world to drop me to my knees again. So remember that when you try and throw your slings and arrows my way...Imma just keep moving through you motherfuckers. Have a nice day.
