Sobriety -
I don't dare say the word out loud;
It is too fragile.
I hold onto the moments as they come and try not to let them pass unnoticed.
Sobriety -
It is like a hand-blown glass ball and I don't want it to break.
Every word is thought out before it is spoken.
Once and a while, a word slips out in anger, and I hold my breath.
"Will it send him to the store?" I silently wonder.
When stress happens, and it happens a lot, I wonder if he'll break.
He handles it better than I.
I wonder if it's because he knows what's in his head and I don't.
I love him more than words could ever express.
I have prayed for this day to come, but I am on edge.
We have been here before and I can not forget how it all came crashing down.
I will not take this for granted.
Thank you God for the blessings you have bestowed upon me, upon us.
When life is down, I try to remember what I have.
So, every day is a new beginning - a new chance to build the life we were meant to have - a new chance to be the parents our children deserve to have - a chance to be truly happy and grateful.
