Mystikkal Life's blog: "That's called LIFE"

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I had my fun playing on this site for a good year, and what I discovered in my time of playing changed the way I really classified "friends," "family," and even combining the two categories of people together. Some friends and family get added and removed, some even get blocked out completely. Real life friends brought to this site quickly start to show a side of themselves that often shock and end friendships off of here as well. And in this time that I spent playing, I really decided that it's not worth it. 

Why spend time and money on people who really don't give a shit? And those who don't spend money... well, they don't mean shit to the game and really are no one in most people's eyes... sad but true. Drama central 3/4 of the time, everyone worrying about who bought who what bling and the price of ownership instead of the person buying... Most use this site as an escape from real life issues, but unless you strictly play the game and don't communicate, the game will start to interfere with real life and become an obsession.

I played the game hard for a while, ran famps, made friends, learned everything I could so that I could help others. I leveled up very quickly, seen myself buzzing through it all as fast as I could possibly go. By doing this, I found myself hurt more than happy unfortunately. I seen 1st hand how twisted things turned out to be. Some of the people in my family I really don't ever get to talk to because I don't chase conversations or force my way into their lives... I simply feel if they want me there, they'll show me they do and if they don't, then I turn and walk away.

I had a "husband" who talked and blinged more to everyone else than he did me, but point sharing was amazing. I really got tired of the drama surrounding that, and came close to ruining the friendship entirely so I walked away. I had fu-mafia where I got emails telling me that I should die and how worthless I was, taking what should be a game and turning it very personal so that I would walk away. I had one of my longest friends make me feel like he forgot I existed unless it benifited him in whatever way, but had no problem flaunting tons of expensive bling to other people yet making sure I knew he wasn't willing to do the same for me, not even an occasional bling thrown my way just because. A real life friend tell flat out lies to people here about my life. Just a few of the things that made me not want to even play the game or be here at all anymore...

I struggle with depression, self worth, acceptance, and much more every day. Why do I need more things in my face to knock me down again?? Truth is, I deserve better!! And I do have some amazing friends who keep me coming back just to keep in touch with them...

My #1 is truly my best friend on here and in real life to! We may never meet face to face, but hopefully we one day will; either way, I know she's had my back from day 1. We argue like sisters, put each other in place, and go right on like nothing ever happened because that's what real friends do. I have a Big Sister on here that I know has my back no matter what, and tries to keep me focused on real life, not the drama on here. My alter ego twin, birth sign the same, identical to everything who knows when something is wrong whether or not I open up who I know will always be here for me. Several others who I consider sisters and brothers, know just how to pick me up and make me keep going throughout all the craziness. I'm grateful for finding this group of friends... no matter if I get to talk to some once a day, week, month, or some even every few months... I know I don't need to make any other friends because I don't need the heartache behind opening up to new people. This group already understands, and I know they won't hurt me.

For those that did hurt me though, it's on them... I made peace with it and am continuing to make peace with it. I choose now to live my life in the real world with my boys and family. I cannot see one day dying as sick as I am and my children being robbed of the time I could have been spending with them being put into playing a game. Rating people who don't deserve an 11, Liking people I've never talked to and don't really know if I like them at all, stupid poke wars, and spending so much time on making a custom picture/banner for free and very little thanks. I have to walk away with my head held high... and just focus my time and effort of those that have proven so many times over they've got my back 100%.

My bling collection has become very personal. I have entire LE Sets thanks to my OCD, and each set has a story behind it. Butterflies, Unicorns, Dragons, lots of things marijuana related, expensive bling that comes with adventures... I really did discover I could get just what I wanted... for anything at all, I'd never delete my page for the simple fact of I Love MY BLING too much, lol. I may not have everything I want, or from the people I feel I should've had them from... but what I do have all comes with a very unique story behind it and it's one that I really like having to remember!