I signed up for that lotus tarot thing...
*shrugs* fuggit...
Here's my first reading... :)
how you feel about yourself now (The Moon)
You feel confused, vulnerable and full of doubts, however, all is not as it seems. Feel the fear and do it anyway, because all will turn out well. Expect the new and unexpected into your life. Your turbulent emotions are muddying the waters so step back and try to find clarity of mind, although this may seem difficult. Things may seem tough or confusing but stick with it, it's right for you. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair.
what you most want at this moment (The Hanged Man)
The cards suggest Master0fPuppets, that what you most want at this time is to have it all, why should you have to give something or someone up? Perhaps you feel a victim and that events are not going as planned. Trust that this is a passage from one phase of your life to another. If you are not sure what or who you need to give up, trust that what will be will be, and will ultimately be to your benefit.
your fears (The Lovers)
Ones heart is ruling ones head! You are so afraid of being hurt you are paralyzed into non-action. To have or not to have? To stay or to go? Throw caution to the wind, great happiness awaits you if you can trust what you feel and ignore the fear and do it anyway.
what is going for you (The Hierophant)
There is help at hand, just ask for it. If you are concerned about making the right decision there is someone with the right moral fiber that can help. You can receive Wise counsel and honest advice from a teacher, priest or parent, or just someone you have a lot of respect for. They are more than willing to help.
what is going against you (Strength)
Your negativity and lack of self control are your real enemies. If you are finding certain addictions in your life are taking a hold, be it smoking or drinking for example, look inward for you hearts true strength and self-belief. Change your attitude and be positive and you will reap great rewards.
outcome (Temperance)
A period of peace and harmony, life will flow and you will find a way of handling any difficult circumstances with calm confidence. This is also a time for patience, so if you are not sure quite what decision to make about any key issue, take your time you’ll know what to do when the time is right.
In retrospect, it wasn't about anyone but me, and I'm glad I kept myself weary and doubtful, considering the outcome of the last few months.
I'm actually happier now. :)
