Sweet Irish Rose's blog: "Sweet Irish Rose aka April"

This is a very well written letter from a Marine wife written by her husband... God Bless our troops!! {This was written by my husband, Aaron, who is currently deployed to Iraq , in defense of a recent comment made by Senator John Kerry. Pass it along, it might inspire someone else to speak up! ~ Michelle} Yesterday John Kerry said, "You know education, if you make the most of it, you study hard, you do your homework, and you make an effort to be smart, you can do well, and if you don't, you get stuck in Iraq. " So I wrote him a letter: I am a Sergeant in the United States Marine Corps. I am currently on my second tour in Iraq , a tour in which I volunteered for. I speak Arabic and Spanish and I plan to tackle Persian Farsi soon. I have a Bachelors and an Associates Degree and between deployments I am pursuing an M.B.A. In college I was a member of several academic honor societies, including the Golden Key Honor Society. I am not unique among the enlisted troops. Many of my enlisted colleagues include lawyers, teachers, mechanics, engineers, musicians and artists just to name a few. You say that your comments were directed towards the President and not us. If we were stupid Senator Kerry, we might have believed you. I am not a victim of President Bush. I proudly serve him because he is my Commander and Chief. If it was you who was President , I would serve you just as faithfully. I serve America Senator Kerry, and I am also providing a service to the good people of Iraq . I have not terrorized them in the middle of the night, raped them or murdered them as you have accused me of before. I am doing my part to help them rebuild. My role is a simple one, but important. You see Senator Kerry, like it or not, we came here and removed a tyrant (who terrorized Iraqis in the middle of the night, and raped them and murdered them). And we have a responsibility to see to it that another one doesn't take his place. The people of Iraq are recovering from an abusive relationship with a terrible government and it's going to take some time to help them recover from that. We can't treat this conflict like a microwave dinner and throw a temper tantrum because we feel like it's taking too long. Senator Kerry, you don't have to agree with this war. You don't have to say nice things about those of us who choose to make sacrifices for the rights of every American rather than sit back and simply feel entitled to it. But please Senator Kerry, if you're going to call me a stupid murdering rapist, stick by what you say. Don't tell me that I misunderstood or that you would never insult a veteran because you're one too. Having been there and done that does not give you a free pass to insult me. My suggestion for you, Senator Kerry, is to remember that your speeches are recorded, and broadcast to us simpletons over here. You may want to write down what you want to say before you say it, maybe have somebody look at it before you say it and tell you what others might hear. Remember that we can't read your mind, if there are any misinterpretations in what you say, it's because you didn't communicate clearly. Good luck to you Senator Kerry, if nothing else it's always entertaining to watch you try and climb out of the holes that you constantly dig for yourself. Sincerely, Somebody who is watching his daughter grow up in photographs so that you can have the right to say whatever you want about him.

Just an update on how I am doing. Today I got to talk to my aunt and cousin in Cali to see how they were holding up. They were in good spirts. My cousin said that the family was there with my uncle when he took his last breath. They said he was sleeping and it was really peaceful. They said right before it happend he smiled. We believe that his mom and daughter (who passed a few years ago and he was ready to see again) was there and that they took him home. So that made me feel good knowing he died with a smile on his face. Now that my friends are in town too. Im sure I will be able to sleep tonight now that I am in a better mood. So good night everyone. I love ya's!

This basically for me to get things out of my head so maybe i can sleep... Well it has been on hell of a day. As some of you know that read my last post, my uncle just past away. (my dad's brother) And my hubby is still being an insensitive jerk. He went to bed tonight without even mentioning my loss or try to console me. That hurt. I dont mean to sound selfish but if it means wanting him to be there for me during this time then ok I'm selfish. But it's clear he isnt goin to be there so I try to hide my pain and deal with it by myself. I have gotten good at hiding my pain the last few years. Only those that I allow to see it can. Basically thats just a couple close friends. But they are in Oklahoma and I am in Texas. (thank God they will be here for the weekend) Anyways,I tried to go to bed to get some rest. I really tried but when I laid down I was overwhelmed with memories and thoughts. It hit me that my dad is the last one in the family that is left that carries our name. My sister took it back after her divorce but its not the same. My dad and his brother both had girls and no boys. Just the thought of that made me cry. Our family name is almost gone. Then I started thinking about my dad and his health. He is a lung cancer survivor, yet his health is still going down hill. He can't do what he use to be able to and is always tired. In and out of the hospital bc of one thing or another. Grandma passed away in july and my uncle just last night....God help me i cant take another death in the family this year. Especially not my own father! I'm just not ready for that. Then again who is really. You can prepare yourself for it but you will never be ready. My sister and I went to california a few months ago to say goodbye to our grandma bc we knew she was leaving us. That week went by so fast I didn't want to leave. But we had our lives we had to get back to. As we drove away she was standing outside waving to us saying to come back agian soon. I just smiled and told her I loved her, got in the car and she blew us a kiss. Jon was with us and i told him to drive away slowly. I couldnt take my eyes off her bc i knew it would be the last time. Couple months after that dad called and told me she had passed. I knew it was coming but i wasnt ready. I tried to stand when I got off the phone to wipe my face but my knees failed me and i collapsed. Jon was there for me then and he caught me and just let me cry until i couldnt no more. Now here i am going through it again by myself this time and all this is going through my head. I need someone to just hold me and let me cry until i fall asleep. I obviously cant do it on my own which is why I am here writing this. Im writing it basically for myself. Thinking that if I get it all done then maybe I will be able to get some rest. I have alot to do tomorrow since a coupl of my friends are coming to town to go to a concert we planned on goin to a for a week now. I didn't want to cancle it bc there is no need to. I know that they will cheer me up and be there for me and i need that now more than ever. I went all day without smiling or laughing. When jon came home he starting rambling on about something that made me laugh alil bit. (No im not sharing, but one person already knows what that was :P) Then I got on here and my lc hubby got on tonight and he made me smile and laugh. That meant alot to me. It was a more sincere smile and laugh than the one i got from Jon. So thank you Sam! You're the best! MAUH! Im so happy I met you and that you are in my life. You have been there for me more than you really know. Thank you for your friendship, it will always be cherished. Ok well, I think i got it all down now. For the most part anyways. Maybe now I can get some sleep soon...guess I'll see!

My dad called me this morning. My uncle passed away last night. After i got off the phone i went to the bathroom to cry so my daughter wouldnt see me. Did my husband come in to see how i was? No. He knew something was wrong by the tone of my voice when i was on the phone. He saw the look on my face. Then when i came out to finish getting kloe ready for school, he didnt say nothing as he heard me call mom to tell her incase she wanted to call my aunt. (by this time i told kloe) Jon didnt say anything to me at all! Not even that he was sorry! Im pretty beaten up over this news as just a couple months ago i lost my last living grandparent and im still not over her death. (Miss you grandma!) Then before he left the house to take kloe to school for me he was standing right next to me, walked to the door and as if i was a last thought turned around and held out his arms for a hug! I hadnt moved from where i was standing where he could have hugged me, and he wanted ME to walk over to HIM! WTF! Im sorry but did he just loose an uncle? No...who was it then? Oh yeah, ME! He is such a f-ing jerk!!! On top of that I didnt get any sleep last night. Im a night owl as it is but decided come 4am that i would try to get a few hours in b4 i had to get up at 7 to get kloe ready for school. Dad called at 7:30. Now I dont know if i could go to sleep even if i wanted to! sorry i had to vent