Some choices are hard
not to make, but
to live with.
My head is pounding away at this moment
and being focused is a real - well you know.
Another poet spoke of "Survivors" and
did it in a way that I began to freefall -
it isn't right for me to do that
within another's space
so I came here - my own blank page.
and
see
people, places, things...
embedded in this white spac
leaking out in all the colors of a rainbow.
We live our lives making
choices
conscious or not
knowingly or not
willfully or not.
Lots of nots - and knots
we get left with - inside
to look back onĀ
to dream of with open eyes
as we sit staring at a white page
filled with all the colors of a rainbow
leaking people, places, things -
we knew, or left, or wished, or touched,
or ever had or never had
or never will.
and it's not always with regret
that the eyes mist up -
some choices you have to make
you HAVE to make just the way
you did...because you loved someone
more than they knew or believed
and letting them go, or letting go
was the ONLY way they could live...
survive..be
I can cry just because I knew you -
it's allowed ... and I can miss you...
and I can love you today
as much as all the yesterdays
and I'd still let you go...
because I had to - HAD to,
not wanted to...and you survived,
awesomely, and me - well
I still walk as ever
filling lots of white pages
with the colors of rainbows
leaking from the tears inside.