Dreamalicious's blog: "Surgery"

Well it looks like I am going under the knife yet again. August 15th I will be having more surgery to remove another lymph node. Just when I was healing from all the other surgeries... SURPRISE! have to do it yet again. Doc says this should be the last so need all my friends to cross fingers and say a few prayers for me. I will be in touch as often as I can to update situation after the surgery. Othar than that everything else is looking really good :) Love to all my wonderful friends and fam here on the fu!!! :)

I have not been around much lately because I am undergoing lymphodema therapy. I started last Tuesday and then another session Thursday. I did not realize the pain this would cause and now I am even more limited to what I can and cannot do. Sitting here at the computer for more than 10 minutes becomes very irratating to my right leg and hip. If I lay down too long I also feel discomfort thus I am losing lots of sleep. This week I have to go back to back... Wednesday and Thursday so I will probable be in more pain for a longer period of time. I am going to try and get all those who keep the love coming my way back as soon and as often as I can. Please do not feel I am ignoring in sb if and when I am on. I stay logged in so I am either not at computer or I am busy trying to rate everyone as quickly as possible. Thanks to all my friends and fam on the fu for showing support and love through this tuff time. Hugs and much love all!

To everyone who cares I just wanted to share a little more on this subject. Since all the surgeries I have had in the past few months I have not been on much. This is not only because of the surgeries but also due to the depression it has caused me. I have held back on sharing this but I get so many questions about it, I thought I would finally share. It is hard to go from being a hard working woman to someone who has troubles just climbing a flight of stairs or sitting up for long periods of time. We take these simple tasks for granted and I truly now realize how much in my life I have taken for granted over the years. This has all been a serious eye opener for me. There are so many other things I could mention as for what is taken for granted but I am sure you all get the picture. Being it is hard to go up and down stairs is another reason I am not on here as much as I would like to be. The fact is I do miss everyone and wish I could be on more often to show all the love and support back that has been shown to me and is still being shown, however because of surgery and the mental state it has put me in, I would rather just wait it all out and then come back with a fresh start. I do try and come on as much as I can, with a smile and love in my heart, but it is so hard to do knowing the pain I feel inside. Seeing so many people enjoying life the way I used to enjoy it truly hurts, especially those who are taking advantage of what they have in life. One surgery is bad enough but I have been through 3... 1 of which was 3 procedure all in 1. This really takes it toll on a persons body as well as mental state. I am not looking for pity because I am a strong woman and will pull out of it. This is not my first rodeo and I am sure it won't be my last. I do want everyone who takes the time to read this to know you are all in my thoughts and I love each and everyone of you as true friends. My life has always been an open book and keeping things from friends has never been my way, so there you have it! lol Anyway, I am working on getting my life back into some form of normalcy and until I do, I may not be seen here much. I will take the time when I can to come on and return all love, favors, comments etc. when I can. Much love, God Bless and Blessed Be to all my wonderful friends and fam on the crazy futrain :):):)

Sorry I have not been on but things took a slight turn for the worse. I had been running a slight fever for 3 days as well as nausea and headaches which were indications of a possible infection in the surgical opening. I am back on track and waiting for my nurse to come visit and let me know if I will need medical attention from my Doc or if it is ok to wait for my appointment. I apologize for not being around and able to rate you all back but I will soon. Much love to all and ty for the love you keep sending even when I am unable to return it :):):) Keep smiling tomorrow may be a better day :)

I am very happy and excited to share that the lymph nodes I had removed came back negative for cancer. I am now cancer free. I am however still high risk and also still healing from surgery but am now more positive and excited about the life I have. I have a newfound look on things and know it can only get better from here. Thank you again for all the love and support I got from my friends here on fubar :):):)

Well surgery went went well, however everything that could go wrong did but I came through it all ok. I am now at home and have a visiting nurse coming in to pack my wound where the lymph nodes were removed. It is painful and makes it hard for me to sit upright for long periods of time. I am trying my best to get to all I can on here to return the love. Please know I appreciate all the love shown while I was away. Fubar has some of the most awesome people I have ever met and am truyl happy to call you all my friends. I am not completely out of the woods yet with all this cancer crap but I am strong and one hell of a fighter so won't be much longer :):):). Hugs, kisses and much much love to all my friends and family here at the fu! (h) :)

It looks as though they found cancer. Next Thursday I go in for in patient surgery to have the rest removed.  It is very scary for me because they also have to remove lymph nodes and this basically leaves us unaware of the extent of the cancer. I will try to keep all my close friends updated. Sending lots of love to all of you and ty all for caring :) Much Love, Sue

I saw an angel in the clouds today,

She spoke to me, said everything would be ok.

I felt a warmth, unlike any before,

I knew things would work out, my heart began to soar.

"The cancer may be gone," Is what she said,

"So close your eyes and rest you weary head.

I shall watch over you, on this painful ride,

I shall hold your hand and stand by your side."

When I awoke from surgery, I knew she was there,

For there was a comfort, A knowing in the air.

This angel was my mother, she never left my side,

She continues on this journey with me with each painful stride.

They say family cannot be your personal angels, but I beg to differ,

She had a voice, that came through in a whisper.

It was a voice I remember so well and shall never forget,

So remember, family watches over you, this you can bet.

She was my angel I saw in the clouds and the angel who said,

"Everything will work out, So rest your weary head."

I love you mom and thank you for being by my side when I need you most.

May all the other angels learn from you what it means to be a great, wonderful and beautiful angel! 

You were, are and always will be my favorite angel :):):)

As of Monday the 10th I will be going in for surgery to have a tumor removed. I want to let all my friends and family here on fubar to know that I appreciate all the love and support they have shown. I will most likely not be able to be online for at least a week during my recovery. It is outpatient surgery but may be pretty extensive. I am not looking for pity that is just not my style. This is just to keep all my close friends updated on whats going on with my health. One thing I do ask is that you pray for that it is not cancerous. Other than that I want to send my love to all. As for now I will not be on much because I am to get rest and not sit in an upright position for long periods of time. I will check in from time to time up until Monday to show as much love back as I possible can. Thanks again for all the love and support. :)