It's very long, so if you dont read it i'll understand.
I don't really like to share my real life too often, but i have to get this outta my head and on paper. Maybe hearing you guys will help me out.
I got back from the doctors an hour ago, and have been thinking. For the 5 people who read my blogs, they know that i had a surgery canceled for July 17,2008. Too dangerous they said. So i'll just have to live with the everyday pain, and be high all the time.
I didn't like this option, so i went for a second opinion last Friday. Today i'm told by a different surgeon that they can do it, with little risk of paralysis. But the scar will be my entire back and i'll be laid up for almost 2 months. The doctor says my first doctor was being lazy and relying on new medicines. (Lasers and such). He'd do it old school, messy but effective.
I have no problem with the scar. Chicks dig scars. I have no problem being in bed for 2 months. Hell, little price to pay instead of being in pain your whole life. He can even get me in September 3. Sounds great huh? I thought so too. Then my mom made a comment. Smart lady, but knows how to rain on my parade.
She asks, so what makes the second doctor more right than the first one? My first doctor is kinda famous and renowned. He works on the Blue Jays and Maple Leafs. Guys who make millions of dollars. I was lucky to even see him. The second doctor works out of a hospital and drives a BMW.
So the Cubby brain starts working. It's true, i trust the first doctor more. Way more actually. So what do i do? It's my back. It's me walking. It's not something to take lightly. Do i go for a third opinion? What would you do?
My back is killing me now, but thats because of all the poking and proding over the last few weeks. In a week or two, i'll be able to go back to work, have a pretty normal life without the surgery. Would you chance it? Would you seek more tests?
So now i go back to the couch and think. I really don't know. Nothing comes easy anymore, and to be honest i have no one to talk too. My mom and dad? Nope. My friends? Most are guys, and don't wanna hear bitching. So i ask you guys.
I'll make a mumm. (Poll)
Life time of pain pills and grumpyness?
Get the operation?
or go see yet another doctor?
Cubby out.
