Fallen Angel in the night's blog: "Stuff"

I wish I could understand why I can't seem to meet a man who wants a committed relationship, which includes fun, laughter, snuggling, affection and all the other stuff that comes with it. I just keep meeting ones that get scared after a few months and push me away. I hear all the time what a great person I am and how sweet I am but its just not enough. As soon as I start caring about someone I get blown away. I am too giving I just know it! Are there really any good trusting men out there or are they all like this?

Enjoying life to the fullest... Living each day for myself the first time in my life, Not letting anyone get in my way making choices for me and not anyone else, If I choose to stay I will, If I choose to go I will, straight to the point is I am in control of me not for anyone else except me thats the way it should be! Always look at the bright side of each bump we cross!

Its all about moving on and thats what I am doing. Its funny when you just break the tie and your doing what was wanted, then out of the blue they contact you. Just stay away...I do not need it in my life. Trying to find a man who wants a real meaningful relationship, one who will share "all" of his life with me, as I will with him..is not an easy task. Some day I just want to forget it and quit trying, other days I have hope....

I am so tired of meeting men who just end up breaking my heart. I must have a target on my head. I suppose I should just not give a crap about anyone anymore. I was so happy with the last one...he even asked me to marry him, gave me a ring...then something happened with his kids and he told me he had to concetrate on them because they were first in his life. He said he would talk to me when he could...that was two weeks ago. He won't even talk to me online or anything....I don't understand and I am so dam depressed because I can't get past it. So here I sit wondering if we are still engaged or not! Is this fair or what?