heartsSlaveowner42069heartsDeath waits f...'s blog: "Stuff i feel like writing"

My life is slowly starting to get better, Now that you've come right on in. Ive opened the gates to my mind it seems, So warm and snuggle to see my friend. You have enterd this place deep inside my heart, And now you are my lover, Its amazing how we have grown And started something better Deep inside somewhere I'll hide, All these thoughs that come Along the way I hope youll stay And mend my heart back together. Slowly yet shurly you've made your stay welcome, Here with in my heart, I give it to you to hold forever, Never shall we part. Please dont break it be very gental, Its softer than you think. I know you wont hurt me believe me its true, If only i could say the same thing. So I give you the key of my heart forever, Never to let me do it to you, If I hurt you smash my heartshapped lock And throw away the key, Know my love is strong for you,A nd we shall always be free. My love how you've hypnotised me, How you've mended my soul. I will be yours for all of eternity Of that we both know.

SHORT STORY SEX POEM NUMBER) You kiss me on my neck and tie me up, im laying on the bed starting to scwarm. You touch my breast and let your hand flow to my neck you start to squeeze and then give me a kiss. you kiss from my lips, to my chin, to my chest, to my breasts. You lick my nipple and start to bit it, I let out a moan. you start to kiss lower and lower right to my inner thigh you bit once more and start to suck. I tell you to stop I don't want anymore. but you know i am playing its just part of my roll. Lick my pussy, yeah eat me out. Fingure it harder, and faster then you pull them out. You tease me for a while licking my clit and using your fingures. you come to me face to face and kiss me you slip me the tongue and get undressed, you play with my clit with the tip of your dick the you sit on my face and force me to give you head, then when your satisfied you slide him in slowly letting me moan, you start fucking me faster and faster as we go, ram him inside me in and out. Harder and harder the pain will never go.Pain is my pleasure, you bit my neck go ahead and do to me what you will, you are my master and i am your slave, for all of eternity give me the pain. ram it deeper i said, keep going in and out slow down now, don't get ahead of yourself. you kiss my neck again and bit it really hard you blow on my chest making it harder for me to get off. you play with my clit again until i scream you untie me knowing your job is done, you lay next to me and i put my head on your chest. . listening. .. to the fast pace of your heart beat as i start to fall asleep.

Your eye's just have this sparkle Like the deep midnight sky. That follow me forever And never ever hide. Your smile just has this addiction Like a mad man on coke. That always leave me laughing Even when I'm alone Your lip's just so soft Like the peddle from a Rose. That never want me to leave They never want me to go. Your face just like an angle That I've never seen before. You've hypnotize my mind You've hypnotized my soul. Your laugh's just like a song That plays again and again in my mind. I know it will always be there Even when I die Your love just feels so true From the moment I met you I knew we would be together Even if it dident mean forever! I love you both. *MUAH* BUTTERFLY KISSES!!Yes. . this goes to both my loves. ..

Some people dont understand the way I feel and why I feel the way I feel. I dont even understand it at times. Everyone is always asking me what is wrong and why do I seem so depressed and it just pisses me off. I may look depressed but i'm not. On the inside I am calm and happy, because I finally got what I wanted. My beautiful wife and loving husband. What more could I want. I mean yes we are homeless, trying to make it threw life, and we do have our arguments, but tell me what couple dosent? Every couple sooner or later has an argument about something weather it be big or small, important or stupid we all argue. It's the way of life nothing and no one is perfect all we have to know is that we have each other and thats what makes us stronger! But the only day we can look at is today. Not tomorrow or yesterday. Yesterday is the past it's not something to worrie about it's not important and tomorrow is the next day something to look forward to. Try to make the best of life, you live it 24/7 nothing new, nothing old just the same old things. Time is nothing but our own imagination. Every day is the same day. Even though the sun goes up and down it's still the same day theres no tomorrow. .. .only yesterday. We are who we are. We think what we think. If no one likes you for you. . .then you know what screw them because you dont need them they will only bring you down in life, not further. I am happy the way I am and I am happy with the decisions I make or else I wouldent make them. i became Homeless because it was my decision. Yes it sucks but hey I need to live with it. I dont regret it or else I wouldent have my Beautiful wife or Loving Husband. I would be in a House with a bed, with food and water. I dident need that. I never have. Life is what you make it to be. Weather it be hard or easy you make it that way. My life is easy right now. I love my Wife and Husband very much and will never let anything get in the way of them. Not family, not friends, not even people I dont know. I make my decisions for my self no one else but me. I am my own person. Be your own person!

I dont understand How some people can tell other people how much they Love them and how much they want to be with them but they just need time to think. Now dont get me wrong I can understand that perfectly fine. Its just I dont get how they need time apart from that person when they are always wanting to talk to them or be around them. .. How is that thinking or being apart? Sex isent going to solve it either. If one person says they need time to think they need to just talk to the other person online instead of saying please meet me here, please do this for me. I have tried so hard to stay so calm about it. I am getting to the point where I am confused. I dont get it. How they can say that and then turn around and see you face to face and act tottaly different. Its not right. Its not right at all. getting someones hopes up and tearing them down like that. I hate it. I hate feeling that knife get pushed deeper and deeper. I hate feeling the pain and I just want it to go away. I want to feel what Love is again. To have someone by my side that loves me and wont do anything to hurt me or make me mad and I wont do anything to hurt them or make them mad.. . .. . but I'm not that lucky. ..I thought I was until I fucked it up and I can addmit that Yes I fucked up in the relationship. .. How many people do you know that can addmit that they are the ones that fucked up in the relationship?!?!?!?!?

I lose my loved ones To some fucked up shit I'm always getting hurt Why do i go threw this My life's fucked up And i don't know why I swear to god I'm going to lose my mind. I cant take this pressure Thats here in my heart To many distinctive feeling but where do I start I need to get away From the things inside That in some way Keep eating me alive. I don't want to lose you Believe me its true. I cant let go Of the memorize I hold of you. I want you to know That the feelings in side I'm locking them up To never let them strive I miss the way you look When you look into my eyes The Hazel Tide It makes me want to cry This feeling inside It will never die Just know no matter what You'll always have my heart

Family is suppose to treat you like your family right? Show you what Love really is, and what it is meant to be Loved, Right? They are suppose to be there for you every day of your life and show you that blood is thicker than water. Not abuse you or treat you like shit, or tell you that your a worthless piece of shit that will never amount to anything, that your fat and ugly. They are suppose to Care for you and Love you, and ask you how you feel about things and what your thinking. If your ok, or mad or sad. They are suppose to comfert you when you are down, not kick you to the kirb like a piece of shit. A family that has abuse and alcoholics is not a family, it is a Disfunctional Home. For all 19 years of my life I have been treat like shit and abused. My mom is an alcoholic who would argue with me and hit me almost 3 times a day, but some times it wasent that bad, but at times it was. My sisters would fight with me every day almost. I never talked to my step-dad (or Mike as I call him), my brother John even though he did what he did he has actually tryed to treat me like family. My brother Jim was bearly there in my life. Lets see I got stranded in Florida for 2 months and asked my mom to buy me a ticket which costed $155 dollars. Your probably thinking "Oh then your mom does care. .. . right?" Ha yeah fucing right your wrong. I got back in michigan was living at her house for about 2-2 1/2 weeks and she kicked me out into the cold while it was snowing out side left to sleep in a park. Yeah what a great mom. Thumbs up for her. She kicked me out because I missed my grandpas funeral and dident call for 4 days because i thought my friends would be better moral support then my family. Now do you think she cares? Family is suppose to love you. . .. .arent they? They are suppose to love and Comfert you. . . right? They are suppose to show you what love really is right? and that your not a piece of worthless shit that will never amount to anything right? they are suppose to show you and help you make it threw life one step at a time, first time is at birth threw childhood, to teen age years threw adult hood till you die. .. . right? I mean Family is Family. They are suppose to be blood right? I dont know what a family is or what love is. I thought i new what love was until my ex fucked me over Once again!!! All because of that stupid bitch Shorty! All I want in life is Love, Happieness, and to know what its like to be apart of a Family. .. .. .. . is that to hard to ask for?!?!?

Would you be happy if I died tomorrow? Right infront of you to remember forever? would you cry and want me back? Or would you be happy and just Laugh? I dont know where I went wrong I tryied so hard but it all came undone. I wanted to make you happy Just to see you proud For once of something I did To better myself I seem to piss you off the further I go To make you happy I would sell my soul Mother dear you dont know Just how much I love you so You kicked me out into the cold Left to freez with no home I dont know were I went wrong. Just tell me for once and ill stay calm You all hate me but for what I still have no clue I try so hard to make you smile To make you laugh its a bump in the ass I dont know what to do anymore Death seems to be the only way Please tell me what to before I go Insane I'm lost with out a clue Maybe ill see grandpa soon And then I can be happy to I'm tierd of the pain Tierd of the tears Tierd of the crying Ive been doing all these years Please oh please tell me what I did To deserve to be treated like a piece of shit I dont understand how I got like this Maybe its because I always got dissed All i want in life is Love and happieness Is that hard to do when I'm not like you? I want to be cared for and know what its like To feel loved And all I want is a big ass hugg. Please someone help me out Show me what love is all about.

Some people may feel alone and think that no one cares about them or sees them suffering inside or screaming and wish someone would talk to them but some people have to realize, Maybe they want to talk to you but dont know how, maybe they want to know whats wrong but dosent know how to go about asking you, maybe they see you in the crowed but dont know how to come up to you and talk, Maybe they want to come near that dead end and take you away, but dont know how to lead you, They can look into your eyes and see whats wrong. . ... .but when there getting ready to say something. . .. .they cant. . .. its like they dont want to make you mad, or feel any worse than what you already do. Maybe they care that much that they dont want to hurt you more than what you already have been. You never know. . .Keep your eyes open and see. . .... . .watch the eyes of your friends and if there looking at you and watching you then you know. .. . that hey. .. .. . they do care.

Apperently I had you back Now your gone No way to turn back From all the pain inside my head My heart got torn When you said goodbye I lost you forever I lost you for life Apperently You never cared You looked into my eyes And you made it clear That you will never come back here You keep on saying That your love is pure Well you know what My love is sincuer