Lissa's blog: "stress"

Today I got so angry, That I almost cried. Today's the day I realized, That our love has died. I think of you a lot, In all different ways. I was hoping we would keep in touch, But it seems you don't care, And now everything's come to an end. Know that I sit here and ponder, Of what I thought was true. I finally believed in happiness, I saw it all in you. But now that you are gone, I wonder if you think of me. Is your heart broken, Am I ever in your dreams? You cut things off so suddenly, Like you never even cared. You once told me you did, But the feelings were never there. Why would you tell me, The different things you felt. If in the very end, You left on me a welt. I don't think you noticed, How much I cared for you. When we had that conversation, Everything I said was true. I thought you felt the same, That's what you expressed to me. But now I know it was a lie. All just painful memories. Today I got so angry, That I almost cried. Today's the day I realized, That our love has died.

The emptiness and darkness is returning, that lonely feeling; the heart is burning. Once, I pushed those feelings away, they were gone for awhile, they're back today. This time could be the end for me, I could finally be gone-my sad soul set free. The empty hollowness in my chest gone forever, could it happen? please? no-never! I was so happy for a long time there, the pain disappeared, ran off somewhere. It didn't go too far, found its way back, right when my life was finally on track. Finally I've come to a harsh conclusion, all my hopes and dreams have been an illusion. So much heartache, pain and strife, what I want is to end this life. That won't happen, I'm not brave enough, tell me why this life has to be so rough. Your help, dear Lord, is what I need, nobody knows how my heart does bleed. Everything’s piling up, I'm quickly sinking, no rope to grab is what I'm thinking...