Starrlyte's blog: "Starr's Rambles"

I'm in a cold dark place now, trying to find my way up and out. Oh Anthea, sweet friend, how I wish we were closer. So I could run to you and cry on your shoulder, I know you'd make me feel better as quick as the time it takes for your smile to light up your face. I'm lost and I don't know how to turn my life back around and make it right again. I don't know if I can find the courage to try again. I feel like I'm going down for the last time and about to lose all that's dear to me.

Just wanted to let everyone know I will not be around for the next several days. I have lost a family member in a house fire and will be out of town. This is a horrible thing to have happen, somthing no one expects will ever happen to them or someone they love. I will be thinking of you all even though I'm not here. Just knowing that I have you all makes thing easier for me. Take care everyone. Lots of Luv, Starr

Hi to all my friends, family and fans, Sorry to not be around and posting this weekend, but have been taken very ill, and of course a week ago I didn't know I'd be sick, so couldn't even get in to see the doctor. Love to you all, Starr Cherry

My gosh, I never realized how physicially hard my job is till I was off for 2 months and went back. After 5 days of running that huge machine I'm so sore I can hardly move, guess I should have worked out while I was off instead of laying around vegging. My doc. is always telling me I should exercise, and I always look at him like he's crazy and remind him what I do for a living. Now I know just how hard it really is, so I know he's crazy. Well a couple more weekes of pain and I should be back in shape, but oh, how long those weekes will be!!! Thinking of taking some vacation days just so I can rest a little, like maybe for my birthday. But that's not till next month. Well I ought to be in great shape for that! Just in case someone actually reads this ( poor you ) I'm still having modem problems so I never know when I'll be online. Need to get it replaced this week. DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY

Hey everyone, please don't think I'm ignoring you right now. I'm having problems -w- my modem, it goes down every few minutes. Hopefully I can get the cable company out here in the next few days to get it fixed, so please bear with me for the time being. Take care, Starr

This is to everyone here on Cherry. Just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. Sorry I havn't been around all week, I have been hit with a nasty flu bug and have been in bed sick all week. So here's wishing everyone a wonderful and happy Christmas. Update to today's ramble, Have been trying to post Christmas comments, but I keep getting an error message that tells me I'm spamming, if anyone knows why this is happening or how I can fix it, please let me know.

It's almost time for Thanksgiving, seems like I don't have enough time anymore. Now that I'm single again, life has gotten so busy, I was shocked to discover that there are men who actually want to go out with me. That is very exciting, as I figured I'd just be alone for a long time, if not forever. It is a lonely place I find myself in none the less. I miss having someone here with me, the closeness. Not that I want my former boyfriend back. To much bad history there. I think it's just the holiday blues getting to me, the though of spending Thanksgiving alone is not appealing, but I do have a 4 day weekend which is nice. And I hate turkey!!! So all in all being alone isn't such a bad thing, I can catch up with all my friends on Cherry Tap, and get some gaming in to boot. And of course there's sure to be a party or two going on. Just have to remember my favorite saying, Don't worry be happy.

Hello to all my LC friends and family and anyone else who reads this post. I have to say I'm sorry. I know I havn't been around much in the last couple of weeks. There has been a huge change in my life. I have recently ended a relationship of 5 yrs. However I did not do it soon enough as I waited till I was emotionally and finanically drained to end it. I have spent the last year trying to put lies and betrayal behind me and make a failing relationship work, problem was I was the only one making the effort. All he wanted to do was sit in a chair, watch TV, eat, sleep, and lie about looking for work. It's very hard to let go of somthing you cherished and thought beautiful, of someone you thought would be there for you for a lifetime. Sometimes you just can't put a shattered relationship back together and some wounds cut to deeply to heal properly. But with the help and support of some wonderful friends, online and off it's getting better a little at a time. Now the hardest part is just surviving the 12 hr. days I'm putting in to try and get back on top of my finances, hopefully quickly, I'm exhausted. So once again I'm sorry for not being here more often, please forgive me. Hopefully I'll be back at it very soon. Love to you all. Remember: DON'T WORRY, BE HAPPY.

Well in case you havn't heard, surgery went well and they could find nothing wrong. Now all I have to do is enjoy this beautiful fall weather, cool sunny days and crisp clear nights. Oh yeah almost forgot finish painting the house while it's not raining. It's really getting embaressing having the house half painted, got to get it done, I 've put so much work into the house this summer I think I've just gotten a little burned out on it. But I sure do love the finished projects, new carpet and roof, new washer/dryer and stove,new rider lawnmower and a couple of new pieces of exercise equipment plus a lot of little things. LOL kept so busy, didn't even get into the pool much. Of course I'd probably get more done if I wasn't online so much, well that's probably not going to happen. Enough of this rambleing and on to somthing else.

Hi to all my LC friends and family, I'll be going into the hospital on Wed. for a heart cath. and ???. Hope to be home by the weekend if not sooner, just depends on what need to be done. I would like to Thank everyone who has made me feel welcome and at home here on LC. I hope you all have fantastic days and nights while I'm gone. Take care and have lots of fun, remember, Don't worry be Happy. Catch ya all later. Starr