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I FELT FOR IT ONCE AND TWICE AGAIN YOUR WORD THE POISONOUS DRUG PRESENTED LIKE CANDY I SWALLOWED YOUR BITTER PILL GLADLY IT CHANGED MY WHOLE OUTLOOK AND GAVE ME HOPE AND SNATCHED IT BACK SENT ME ON A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS WHEN MY ANGER WAS KINDLED YOU GAVE IT TO ME TO EASE THE COMMOTION I LOVE YOU IS JUST A PHRASE SOMETHING TOO SAY WHEN I BEGAN TO DESPISE.THE LIE'S THAT THE PILL MADE ME ACCEPT THEY SERVED AS TRANQUILIZERS TO PUT TO SLEEP MY FREE WILL AND SENSE OF SELF RESPECT YOU BUILT ME UP TOLD ME SWEET NOTHINGS I"M THIS I"M THAT AND MUCH MORE TO BE EXACT I TOOK THESE THINGS TO HEART BECAUSE I KNOW I"AM IN FACT YOU MADE ME BELIEVE THAT I"AM DIFFERENT BUT I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT TO YOU I" AM NOT I'M JUST THE FILLER THE ONE TO SATIATE YOUR RIGHT NOW NEEDS AND BE DIPOSED OF WHEN I DECIDE TO STOP LETTING YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY MERCY YOU CAN NO LONGER FOOL ME FROM THE BEGINNING YOU WERE SELECTIVELY TRUTHFUL REVEALED THE TRUTH WHEN YOU WANTED BUT DEMANDED ALL OF IT FROM ME AND WHEN IT CAME DOWN TO HOW YOU FELT ABOUT ME YOU HID YOUR FEELINGS LED ME ON TO BELIEVE I WAS SOMETHING TRUE THE TRUTH SUGAR COATED AND HID THROUGH SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES AND LACK OF ACTION I'M HIP TO YOU ON HOW YOU TRY TO KISS AWAY THE PAIN YOU'VE CAUSED BECAUSED YOU KNOW YOU WERE WRONG YOUR GIFTS AND YOUR KISS WILL NO LONGER QUIET THE HUNGER FOR SUBSTANCE  THEY WILL NO LONGER HUSH MY SPEECH WHEN YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR MY EXPRESSION YOU TELL ME SPEAK UP AND EXERCISE MY RIGHTS BUT SHUT ME DOWN WHEN MY TRUTH DOESN'T CATER TO YOUR ELECTION I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU WHEN SAY YOU CARE I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU WHEN YOU SAY YOU'LL BE THERE BUT ONE DAY YOU MEAN IT AND THE NEXT DAY YOU TAKE IT BACK THE TRUTH IS YOU KNOW JUST WHAT TOO SAY IN ORDER TO GET YOUR WAY AND I DONT INTEND TO STICK AROUND FOR YOU TO LEAVE YOUR MARK AND KEEP ME BOUND I KNOW MY WORTH AND I"AM A TEMPLE WORTHY TO DEFEND YOU'RE GOIN TO MISS ME WHEN I'M GONE AND WHEN I'VE ERASED MY EXISTENCE FROM YOUR RECORD YOU'LL RECONIZE THE POWER I HOLD WITHIN