Have you ever woken up one day and felt real good about it and somewhere during that day all hell seems to break loose??? Today was that day. I woke up in a great mood, reminiscing of a week of pure heaven, then BAMM! I get a call from a friend and he says "Check your Email", so I do and there it is, a packet to fill out for augmentation to the XVIII Airborne Corps for duty in Iraq. This is both pleasing and disheartening to me... one I want to go, it puts me in a perfect spot to finish up my active duty for retirement, on the other hand it drives me completely away from those that I cherish and Love, one person in particular. Now my decision affects several people, not just me, what do I do??? Then I find out that my divorce paperwork hasn't even been completed.... Damn can this get freaking worse???? Nope, I drag the soon to be Ex to the courthouse and stand over her to ensure she signs the paperwork, 2-3 weeks and the divorce is Final, whew a break today, finally. Still I do not get out from the turmoil of making a decision to return to Iraq. I surely will find a retirement at the end of this and an easier life ahead with going, do I make it back, am I supposed to go, would everything change here during my absence, all things I must consider. The one fact that stands out, my soulmate, the one I cherish most of all, how does this affect her and us? Stuff to work out for sure, a short time to do it...... Damn I'm spinning face first in the ground.......
