Devious Distraction's blog: "Songs In My Head"

You took your time to come back this time The grass has grown under your feet In your absence I've changed my mind And someone else is sitting in your seat I know that I said there be no-one else I know that I said I'd be true But baby - I've burned out cupid's arrow And here's the short and the narrow I've nothing left to offer you All cried out You took a whole lot of loving for a handful of nothing All cried out It's hard to give you something when you're pushing and a shoving me around So don't look surprised there was no disguise You knew where I stood from the start So stop - look around you You're right back where I found you Take back your cold and empty heart All cried out You took a whole lot of loving for a handful of nothing All cried out It's hard to give you something when you're pushing and a shoving me around You go your way I'll go mine I wont stay around here Don't you waste my time

"R", I busted into tears when you quoted this song in your email. Every time I hear it, I can only envision you singing it to me. I always did, even before we broke up. Hate Me - Blue October (click video below to hear music) I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you For you

Pink it´s my new obsession Pink it´s not even a question Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause Pink is the love you discover Pink as the bing on your cherry Pink ´cause you are so very Pink it´s the color of passion `Cause today it just goes with the fashion Pink it was love at first sight, yea Pink when I turn out the light, and Pink gets me high as a kite And I think everything is going to be all right No matter what we do tonight You could be my flamingo ´Coz pink is the new kinda lingo Pink like a deco umbrella It´s kink - but you don´t ever tell her Pink it was love at first sight Pink when I turn out the light Pink gets me high as a kite And I think everything is going to be all right No matter what we do tonight I want to be your lover I wanna wrap you in rubber As pink as the sheets that we lay on Pink is my favorite crayon, yeah Pink it was love at first sight Pink when I turn out the light Pink it´s like red but not quite And I think everything is going to be all right No matter what we do tonight

Your words to me just a whisper Your face is so unclear I try to pay attention Your words just disappear 'Cause its always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said So I speak to you in riddles because My words get in my way. I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away 'cause i can't take anymore of this, I want to come apart. or dig myself a little hole inside your precious heart 'Cause its always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said I am nothing more than a little boy inside That cries out for attention yet I always try to hide 'Cause I talk to you like children, Though I don't know how I feel But I know I'll do the right thing If the right thing is revealed 'Cause its always raining in my head Forget all the things I should have said

I love the way you look at me I feel the pain you place inside Lock me up inside ya dirty cage While I’m alone inside my mind I like to teach you all the rules I’d get to see them set in stone I like it when you chain me to the bed There ya secrets never shone [chorus] I need to feel you You need to feel me I can’t control you You’re not the one for me, no I can’t control you You can’t control me I need to feel you So why’s it involve I love the way you rape my skin I feel the hate you place inside I need to get your voice out of my head Cause I’m the guy you’ll never find I’m faking all of the rules There’s no expressions on your face I’m hoping some day you will let me go Release me from my dirty cage [chorus] I need to feel you You need to feel me I can’t control you You’re not the one for me, no I can’t control you You can’t control me I need to feel you So why’s it involve...you and me.. [repeat 4x] I love the way you look at me I love the way you smack my ass I love the dirty things you do I have control of you [chorus] I need to feel you You need to feel me I can’t control you You’re not the one for me, no I can’t control you You can’t control me I need to feel you So why’s it involve you and me..

Been away, haven't seen you in a while. How've you been? Have you changed your style and do you think That we've grown up differently? Don't seem the same Seems you've lost your feel for me So let's leave it alone, 'cause we can't see eye to eye. There ain't no good guys, there ain't no bad guys. There's only you and me and we just disagree. Ooo - ooo - ooohoo oh - oh - o-whoa I'm going back to a place that's far away. How bout you? Have you got a place to stay? Why should I care? When I'm just trying to get along We were friends But now it's the end of our love song... So let's leave it alone, 'cause we can't see eye to eye. There ain't no good guys, there ain't no bad guys. There's only you and me and we just disagree. Ooo - ooo - ooohoo oh - oh - o-whoa So let's leave it alone, 'cause we can't see eye to eye. There ain't no good guys, there ain't no bad guys. There's only you and me and we just disagree.

Well baby, there you stand With your little head, down in your hand Oh, my god, you can’t believe it’s happening Again Your baby’s gone, and you’re all alone And it looks like the end. And you’re back out on the street. And you’re tryin’ to remember. How will you start it over? You don’t know what became. You don’t care much for a stranger’s touch, But you can’t hold your man. You never thought you’d be alone this far Down the line And I know what’s been on your mind You’re afraid it’s all been wasted time The autumn leaves have got you thinking About the first time that you fell You didn’t love the boy too much, no, no You just loved the boy to well, farewell So you live from day to day, and you dream About tomorrow, oh. And the hours go by like minutes And the shadows come to stay So you take a little something to Make them go away And I could have done so many things, baby If I could only stop my mind from wondrin’ what I left behind and from worrying ’bout this wasted time Ooh, another love has come and gone Ooh, and the years keep rushing on I remember what you told me before you went out on your own: ’sometimes to keep it together, we got to leave it alone.’ So you can get on with your search, baby, and I can Get on with mine And maybe someday we will find , that it wasn’t really Wasted time