got ink's blog: "Song Lyrics"

When I was a boy I didn't care 'bout a thing
It was me and this world and a broken dream
I was blaming myself for all that was going wrong

I was way out there on the wrong side of town
And the ones that I loved I started pushing 'em out
Then I realized that it was all my fault

I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

So I put out my hand and I asked for some help
We tore down the walls I built around myself
I was struck by the light and I fell to the ground

I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

You know a heart of gold won't take you all the way
And in a world so cold it's hard to keep the faith
I'm never gonna fade away, yeah

I've been looking for a lifeline
For what seems like a lifetime
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

Is there anybody out there?
Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?
I'm drowning in the pain, breaking down again
Looking for a lifeline

It isn't easy
To continue what we've got here
What should we do?
It's been years since the first time it started
I thought I knew
I'm not the same person that I was back then
Time passed and I'm so uncertain about this

More and more you cry each night
It's all my fault and you wonder
Why I'm gone so all the time
It's like a bomb ticking in our lives

I'm sorry but it's hard being honest
I'm not like you
I'm getting doubts
And I don't know how to stop them
I can't tell you
Disappointments add up when it's hard to reach you
All the things
We both worked hard for
We'll lose

More and more you cry each night
It's all my fault and you wonder
Why I'm gone so all the time
It's like a bomb ticking in our lives

You have to know that I'm getting sad and quiet, it's nothing new
I try so hard to bring up fallen causes
I always lose

More and more you cry each night
It's all my fault and you wonder
Why I'm gone so all the time
It's like a bomb ticking in our lives

It isn't easy
To continue what we got here
What should we do?
It's been years
Since the first time it started
I thought I knew

Well you know that I'd give you my heart
Even if it's torn apart
'cause I've come too far to be scared
and I don't regret what we've shared

But you know that I love you for good
And I love you much more than I should
And I can't help but cry when you're so far away
But I smile 'cause I hope that you'll be back one day

chorus
If I died in your arms, would you then give me your love?
Would you tell me that you need me and that I was the one?

There's nothing I can say to you
To make you feel the same way too
When you walk away I just want to die
And I try not to break down and cry

But you know that I love you this way
Enough to let go and let you walk away
And maybe you'll come back and maybe you won't
But when you're not with me I feel so alone

Now there's one thing I need you to know
'cause you think that you just know me so
that I'd be there if you asked me to
and oh…if you only knew

That I love you so much that hurts
But a broken heart feels so much worse
You do what you want but I gave you my best
And you know something? If you asked me, I would say yes…Well you know that I'd give you my heart
Even if it's torn apart
'cause I've come too far to be scared
and I don't regret what we've shared

I've got a secret plan to love you
and I'd do so night and day
and I'd always stand right by you
have your back in every way
and I wish that I could save you
and you wish that I could to
but if you cause too much pain for me
I'll leave if I have to

But I think about you constantly
all through the night and day
and I toss in turn in bed at night
and hope it goes away
But it never does and when I wake
and you're not next to me
'remember where you are
I hope your girl forgives me

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Do I need you
well you seem to think I do
can't seem to see through
all the things that you do

I should know better than to
follow your lead wherever you go
through the raging rivers, thunderstorms
and alleyways below
Sometimes I wonder if you really know
where you take me to
but your radio is on so loud I can't get through to you

But if everything's ok with you
then it's ok with me
you are such a little boy
with your big philosophy
But I'm not a little girl
I am a woman don't you know
I'm packing up my toys
I don't wanna play anymore

and how can you smile at me
when you know just what you can do
and it's not fair to me

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You make me weak, crazy, can’t find my way home
I’m waitin’ in the rain and I’m soaked to the bone
and every time you promise I don’t know if it’s true
and everytime you say you love me I don’t know if you do

You can draw my mind so effortlessly
and I can feel it everytime you think of me
Why don’t you let me go why do you put me through this?
I should have known that I was fucked from the very first kiss...

I'm the Queen of Pain… I can make it thunder and rain
I can turn the clouds black in the sky, I can put all those tears in your eye
I'll leave and never wave goodbye …'cause I'm the Queen of Pain

I won't hear their names 'cause the voices are always the same
The places, the chases, the interchangeable faces
Are scratching me attaching, surrounding, binding
How can I care if it's not you?
You smile at the things that I do..

chorus
and then you say…
I'm as cold as November
You say…
I'm as cold as November…

Things will never be the same and I will never give you back your name
Because I earned it with you under my skin
But it's my fault for lettin' you in
I even paid you and that should be a sin
'cause then you abandoned…..

You're as cold as November

You laughed when I was crying
And I was crying every time you laughed
Oh, but ain't it kind of funny
That you weren't laughin' when I left.

So who's the real King of Pain? I'm trying to forget your name
But you show up wherever I go
Your smile lurking in my shadow
Oh, please why don't you just let me go, 'cause I don't want to remember…
how it was in May…
'cause now it's the month of November.

I can see you in my past,
but this time's been so alone.
Can't seem to find you,
but I've come to take you home.
Just want to touch you through the glass,
but you don't see me.
Do you remember when we met last?

Don't lose your faith in love.
Don't lose your faith in love.
Bring it on home to me,
I'll give you faith in love, today.

I will know you by the way you look at me.
No one can hold your gaze longer than me.
No, no one makes you sigh.
Don't be afraid,
Come with me,
I'll protect you,
I've got God on my side.

Don't lose your faith in love.
Don't lose your faith in love.
Come home with me,
I'll give you faith in love, today.

And they all think they understand you,
and you just smile and let them think they do.
You've accepted you might have to trek alone,
but you'll get your table set for two.
And I look into your eyes
and I can see what the others can't,
because they all want to own you,
but I just want to have this dance.

Don't lose your faith in love.
Don't lose your faith in love.
Come home to me,
I'll give you faith in love, today.

Don't lose your faith in love.
Don't lose your faith in love.
Come home, come home to me.

da da dum dudu dum

Hey now,
I've stepped into the black
I say hey now
I wont be coming back
I say hey now
I've left it all behind
I say hey now
Take a look but you won't find, no

Step outside this world where I'll be free, yeah
Step outside this world where I can see, oh
Queen of sorrow and all this hell within
Oh, I close my eyes and sit back as I watch my end begin

Hey now
Void of sight and sound
I say hey now
The spiral always down
I say hey now
There ain't no coming back
I say hey now
I've stepped into the black now

Step outside this world where I'll be free, yeah
Step outside this world where I can see, oh
Queen of sorrow and all this hell within, oh
Oh, I close my eyes and sit back as I watch my end begin

Step outside this world where I'll be free, yeah
Step outside this world where I can see, oh
Queen of sorrow and all this hell within