Johnny Ray's blog: "sometimes"

Nightmares are much more fun and exciting....blood pumping raw and unexpected. Apart from the world and yet in the thick of it. A reason or two makes you wanna stay...and sometimes you hope that if Death's icy hand grabbed your heart...you just may. A place of desires no matter how deep. Where you walk a path or wishes lacking responsibilities or obligations...may the darkness embrace me tightly...so I may share my indulgences here in both worlds...For my own balance.

Ponder all the words ever shared, Muses and ideas and thoughts dared, Examine to what end it'll be, Is it the end you hoped you'd see? Roll with a punch, The sidelines gather a bunch, Shadows await your return to the dark, When your eyes and skin turn grey and feel like bark, Happiness a glimmer on horizon I can't reach, Loniness attained absorbed and not preached, I stand till I fall to the fates call, Sometimes I can barely wait for that fall, Echos ringing loudly...beckoning me, The strings of obligation make me stay you see, Only time remains as the end draws close, Abyss, quiet and serenre waitin for me.

the razored edge of grims blade calls to me, curious remnants pass through my mind, one half anticiapation one half need, with out sorrow nor even a sliver of fear, a welcoming unlike any other, no obligations, no possessions, no more problems, a silence eternal, a dream beyond all dreams, a place where my voice doesn't matter if it's heard or not, time becomes my relief forever.