I's blog: "Sometimes I have too much time..."

Wow. Sleep eludes me again. Go figure. If sleepin' were fuckin'...I'd be a virgin. Probably wouldn't even have touched myself yet. I thought I had a lot more to say when I started typing but I think I was just foolin' myself. What is there to talk about that hasn't been discussed at great length by others? What kind of interesting new conversation could be brought to the table that hasn't been run through the mill and dragged through the mud?!!So I will sit here and think until I can find a topic to talk about. Hmmm.......................................... Ah-hah! I got it. Have you ever thought about how we can...? Or how we have to take a .....? Or maybe why we always...? See what I mean... all talked out. Life and conversation have turned into "Who can state the obvious the best or who can ask the most redundant questions possible." Ever wonder why when someone asks you a question and when you answer them they say " Oh yeah?". Well.... Jackass, I was just making that shit up so you'd say " Oh Yeah?". Or when your doing something and every person in the world asks you the same question? "INSERT STUPID QUESTION HERE STATING THE OBVIOUS ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE VERY BUSY DOING, WHILE DOING YOUR BEST NOT TO BE ANNOYED BY AN IDIOT" type thing. ie. ( Washing the car?")No.... "I found this dead cat that looks like a glove and I'm spreading anti-mind control lotion on my car so the people from Planet Gorfarth don't read my mind and steal my invention for the wheel", DUMBASS!!!! Of course I'm washing the car...Get to the point.Why are you bothering me? Of course I am guilty of this too. But its usually when I have no idea what to say to someone. You know.. The "Why do I get stuck talking to this dumbass guy? " person. I am always stuck talking to these people. Wawa's, movie theatres, grocery stores, Home Depots...etc, etc. Does this happen to anyone else? Or do I just hate everyone? Or does everyone hate me and find me to be the dumbass that can't hold a conversation? I'll have to think about that one some more. Interesting..............

What to do? What to do? I'm sitting here pondering theories of the universe and I think I would like a couple of things clarified for me because I'm just not understanding. #1: Why is it we do the things we do? When do we lose the hope of being or doing something better; or just plain ol' trying in general? We all seem to putter around in a bleak fog that hazes and clouds our minds until we basically get unto a repetative cycle and we don't even have to think anymore. Why? I'm to blame for it too. I catch myself now and again just meandering through, like a lazy crooked river, just trying to find something to spark that little bit of life again. Do we get this way as we get older or is it just what happens when you give up? When you forget all the things you wanted to be or do? Do we just settle into something that's easier and more conforming to the society we've created? #2: What is it that makes us all shun the outside world and not bother with interacting with our fellow man? I see it everyday. People walking past, averting there eyes, so they don't have to acknowledge your existense. Dreading the fact that you may say "Hi." or "How are you doing?" When did it become such a crime to take the time to say hi? Or maybe even just a smile? Is it that hard to take an interest in someone you don't know? Or are you so paranoid and self-centered that you think your to good to say hi? #3 When the fuck did it become ok to become a crash-up derby, NASCAR wannabe, total fucking asshole of a human being, when we get behind the wheel? Is it just now that I am older that I notice it or have people as a whole just really gotten to the point of being downright evil when in control of an automobile? I can't even begin to describe the offensive behavior thats taken over our American highways, but I'm pretty sure you all know what I'm talking about. I try not to let it bother me. I just let em' go around or cut me off, say a silent prayer wishing for their immediate death or some other horrible shit, and thank God that I will get to where I'm going alive.Because dying in a car accident is a shitty way to go if you think about it. You died...because you were an asshole. Not because you fought heroically in a war; or because you gave your life to save 40 others; NO you went and got dead because you thought you were invincible behind the controls of a 3,000 pound asshole missle on wheels. Everthing in the car can pierce, cut, break, slice, and just basically tear you aprt. And you think its a good idea to ride up my ass, swerve in and out, speed, whatever the hell else you can think of, all while talking on the cell phone, reading the paper, finger-fuckin' the radio, etc., etc. Do you realise you are in a machine; no, let's call it a death trap, that you literally have no control over? You may control the speed and steering, but you don't control tires blowing, brakes failing, engine sending a rod through the block into your leg, that kinda stuff. Not to mention the other assholes out there that are driving just as bad, if not worse, than you. So do us all a favor; if any of this story describes you, when you get in your car and go somewhere....Think about this....It would be much easier on everyone if you just went back in the house and blew your brains out. This way your not taking any of us with you and it most definitely is a much cooler and more admirable way to go then by getting to those Pearly Gates and having to tell Saint Peter that you're here because you were an asshole. #4:I wonder if everyone else wanders these things or if I'm the only one.I sure hope not. That would suck. HAHAHAHAHA!! Thanks for listening?

Did you ever wonder....... If there are birds out there, afraid of heights? If fish can drown? (thanks Shawn) If some monkeys can't climb trees? Why cats always land on their feet? A billion things, I wonder about, as I aimlessly walk amongst the other half- alive people out there. I often wonder why we think we are the superior species of this planet. I mean for all our intelligence and technology, which is an accomplishment, are we really getting it? By getting it, I mean, what this life is all about? I feel as if somewhere along the line we became to smart for our own good. Or maybe we're not smart enough to really comprehend the power we can weild as one great civilization. I mean shit, a only ten thousand years ago we were berry pickin, mammoth huntin, uncivilized morons. In the grand scheme of things, thats not very long when you consider the process of our development and the billions of years our planet has been around. Only in the last hundred years have we invented all this wonderful technology that makes us superior. Thats the time equivilant,.... of the exact amount of time,... it takes for your brain.... to realize..... you just sharted. If you compare it to the time span of our evolutionary ladder. And I also wonder that if we are the only species (supposedly) on the planet that has emotions; can that really be a good thing? We only seem to use them to fester up the worst in our society. Is it that we all just stopped paying attention to them? Figured, hell we don't need 'em? Or are we so cynical and jaded and greedy that we only pay attention to the really nasty ones that boil up from the bowels of our worst inner selves? Or am I just crazy, and bored, with too much time on my hands? :)