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I SIT HERE LOOKING BACK ON THE PAST AND THE PROMISES MADE TO ME AND I MADE MYSELF.... I SIT HERE THINKING OF YOU NIGHT AND DAY WISHING I COULD HEAR YOUR LOVELY VOICE AGAIN.... YOU SAY YOU WANT A MAN THAT WONT WALK AWAY BUT YET YOU CANT SEE THAT THERE IS A MAN STANDING HERE THAT HAS NOT WALKED AWAY AND NOT GIVEN UP..... TRUE LOVE AND TRUE BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE NEVER GOES AWAY NOR CAN IT BE SHUT OFF LIKE A LIGHT SWITCH... I SIT HERE THINKING OF THE WORDS THAT HAD BEEN SAID ON BOTH ENDS AND THEY WERE PRETTY HURTFUL... BUT MY HEART WILL NEVER CHANGE HOW I FEEL FOR YOU... I SIT HERE THINKING AND ASKING MYSELF DOES SHE EVEN THINK OF ME ANYMORE DOES SHE EVEN MISS ME AN DBEING IN MY ARMS... I SIT HERE THINKING HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND HOW MUCH I MISS HOLDING YOU IN MY ARMS AND FEELING YOUR TOUCH WHEN I GET DOWN AND DEPRESSED... JUST SITTING HERE THINKING TO MYSELF WILL SHE ACTLY READ THIS NOW THAT IM DONE WRITING THIS OR WILL SHE EVEN CALL ME ON THE PHONE... YOU DONT RELIZE THE TORMENT I PUT MYSELF THREW FOR THE MISTAKES I DID.... I AM EMPTY AND LOST WIHT OUT YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN RELIZE THE JOY HAPPINESS YOU HAD BROUGHT IN MY LIFE JUST BEING YOURSELF AND HOW MUCH I DO LOVE YOU FOR YOU AND TOOK YOU FOR WHO YOU TRUELY ARE
YOUR ALWAYS ON MY MIND ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS.... I WALK IN THE DARKNESS LOOKING THREW THE TREE'S WATCHING YOU FROM A DISTANCE WONDERING IF YOU EVER THINK OF ME OR EVEN MISS ME. I LOOK BACK ON THE DAYS AND NIGHTS WE SPENT TOGETHER AND HOW HAPPY WE WAS AND HOW I FELT LIKE THE REST OF THE WORLD DIDNT MATTER TO ME CAUSE YOU ARE MY WORLD... AND EVEN NOW YOUR STILL MY WORLD AND ALWAYS WILL BE.... MY HEART IS EMPTY NOW THAT YOUR GONE BUT YOUR ALSO STILL IN MY HEART AND MY THOUGHTS.... I HOPE ONE DAY I CAN PROVE MY HEART IS YOURS AND THINGS WILL GO BACK TO US AGAIN
IT IS SAD WE GET TOLD I LOVE YOU AND YOUR MY WORLD AND DONT WANT TO LOOSE YOU NO MATTER WHAT WE HAVE TO WORK THREW. AND THEN ONE DAY YOU COME HOME FROM WORK JUST TO BASICALY GET TOLD TO FUCK OFF NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY TO TALK THE PROBLEMS OUT WITH THE PERSON. THEN SHORTLY AFTER SHE WALKS OUT ON YA SHE IS SUPPOSELY IN LOVE WIHT SOMEONE ELSE BUT I AM TO BELIVE SHE WAS NOT TALKING TO HIM BEFORE SHE LEFT OR WHILE WE WAS TOGETHER.. IF IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND I WOULD BE THE BAD PERSON IN ALL OF THIS FOR WALKING AWAY OVER SOME MESSAGE TO SOMEONE ELSE THAT HAPPENED BEFORE WE WAS BACK TOGETHER AND TWO SIMPLE WORDS THAT WAS NOT TYPED A CERTAIN WAY. BUT THEN AGAIN EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT AND IM THE CAUSE AND REASON THAT SHE IS THE WAY SHE IS... IT IS FUCKING FUNNY HOW SHE EVEN SAID SHE COULD NEVER BE WITH ANOTHER GUY AND BE TRUELY HAPPY LIKE SHE IS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER.. AND SHE WOULD BITCH ABOUT THE LIL BITCHES THAT PLAY GAMES WITH MENS HEARTS AND EVEN BITCH ABOUT A GAL THAT PLAYES WIHT MY HEAD AND MY HEART AND USES THINGS TO TRY AND KEEP ME IN HER LIFE... AND THE WOMAN KNEW FROM THE START OF US GETTING BACK TOGETHER THERE THINGS I HAD TO DO UNTILL LATER THIS YEAR... BUT IT DONT MATTER CAUSE SHE HAS HER HEAD SO FULL OF WHAT OTHERS HAVE TOLD HER ABOUT ME AND ALL IT DONT REALY MATTER CAUSE THE GUYS ON HERE WANT ONLY ONE THING FROM HER AND IT IS BETWEEN HER LEGS AND NOT HER HEART AND TO BE WITH HER FOR HER..... SHE HAD A MAN THAT WAS WALKING AWAY FROM EVERYTHING THAT MEANT ANYTHING TO HIM FOR HER AND NOW HAS LOST EVERYTHING... GUESS THAT IS WHAT SHE WANTED TO DO WAS WATCH ME LOOSE EVERYTHIN AND SLIP AWAY INTO DARKNESS AND STOP BREATHING AND WELL SHE HAS HER WISH CUASE I AM FADING AWAY AND MY LIFE WILL BE OVER SOON SEEING HOW SHE WANTS TO TELL PEOPLE SHE ONLY SAID WHAT I WANTED TO HEAR AND THAT I WAS A CONTROLING ASSHOLE JUST CAUSE I WANTED TO SPEND TIME WITH HER OTHER THEN IN BED AND ON THE NET.... MAYBE ONE DAY SHE WILL RELIZE WHAT SHE HAS DONE AND THAT SHE IS NO BETTER THEN THE WOMEN SHE BITCHES ABOUT... AND SHE TELLS EVERYONE WHEN SHE MAKES A PROMISE SHE FALLOWS THREW WITH IT AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY I DONT DO PROMISES THEY ARE NOTHING BUT LIES
WHY IS IT WHEN YOU SAY I LOVE YOU AND IM IN LOVE WIHT YOU AND YOU WANT TO MAKE IT WORK AND YOU WILL DO ANYTHING TO MAKE IT WORK... YOU WALK AWAY SHORTLY AFTER WARDS NOT EVEN TRYING TO MAKE IT WORK.. UNLESS IM JUST THE GUY YOU RUN TO WHEN YOU CANT FIND A GUY THAT WILL COME TO YOU CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT IM ALWAYS HERE AND WILLING TO DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES TO BE YOUR WORLD AND YOUR MAN.... YOU SAID I COULD ALWAYS KNOCK THE WALLS DOWN WHEN YOU WAS LAYING NEXT TO ME IN MY ARMS BUT NOW THAT YOUR NOT YOU WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOUR OWN HEART AND LOOK AT THE PROMISES AND THE WORDS YOU WAS SAYING THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS SOMEONE BUT NOW I FEEL AS IF I WAS JUST ANOTHER PEICE OF ASS FOR THE TIME WE WAS TOGETHER.... BUT I HAVE AND WILL WALK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE EXPECT ONE THING AND THAT ONE THING IS YOU I WILL ALWAYS BE WATCHING OVER YOU AND BE HERE WAITING FOR YOU...... BUT EVERYTHING ELSE I WALK AWAY FROM AND I WONT STOP SHOWING YOU HOW MUCH LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU AND HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME UNTILL THE DAY I DRAW MY LAST BREATH...... I HOPE ONE DAY YOU CAN LOOK INTO YOUR HEART AND BACK ONTO THE WORDS AND PROMISES YOU MADE ME AND A FEW OTHERS THAT WAS SUPPORTING US 100 PERCENT AND RELIZE YOU WALKED AWAY WAY TO SOON....BUT THEN AGAIN YOU ALREADY TELLING PEOPLE YOUR IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE BUT THAT IS HARD TO BELIVE IT HAS ONLY BEEN 3 WEEKS SO EITHER YOU WAS TALKING TO HIM BEFORE YOU LEFT ME OR HE IS PLAYING GAMES WIHT YOUR HEART AND YOUR HEAD BUT THEN AGAIN YOU LISTEN WITH WHAT IS BEING SIAD TO YOU INSTEAD OF YOUR HEART
YOU NEED TO LISTEN TO YOUR HEART FULLY AND TELL EVERYONE ELSE TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET YOU LISTEN TO YOUR HEART INSTEAD OF THEM PUTT THE SHIT IN YOUR HEART OR YOU HEAD LIKE ALWAYS........I DO LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL UNTILL I DRAW MY LAST BREATH
I WALK AROUND AIMLESLY THINKING BACK ON THE PAST AND WONDERING WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO THE PROMISES AND ALL THE FEELINGS HAD WENT JUST OVER TWO SIMPLE LITTLE WORDS EVERYTHING THAT WAS SUPPOSELY GOING SO RIGHT TRUN IT INTO SOMETHING SO TREIABLE BUT IT DONT MATTER WHEN THE PERSON THAT GOT UPSET AND WALKED AWAY NEVER REALY WAS TRUELY IN LOVE WITH THE ONE THAT FUCKED UP. I NEVER WOULD TRUN AWAY FROM THE ONE THAT IM IN LOVE WITH OVER TWO LITTLE WORDS AND SHIT THAT HAD HAPPENED IN THE PAST
ER IT IS FUNNY HOW I GET TOLD I AM SOMEONES WORLD AND THEIR LIFE AND THEY ARE DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH ME AND COULDNT STAND THE THOUGHT OF LOOSING ME.. AND THAT THE PAST WAS JUST THAT THE PAST AND THAT FROM THAT MOMMENT ON WE WOULD TALK OUR PROBLEMS OUT NO MATTER HOW BIG NOR SMALL THAT THEY WAS ... THAT THE PERSON WANTED IT TO WORK THIS TIME NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS SAID... BUT CAUSE OF SOMETINGS SENT TO A PERSON BEFORE WE GOT BACK TOGETHER AND THE FACT I TYPED LOVE YOU INSTEAD OF LUV YA AND MY SONS NAME TO THE GAL... I AM SUPPOSELY A PLAYER AND IM THE BAD PERSON.... BUT GUESS OTHERS WAS RIGHT THAT GAL NEVER TRUELY LOVED ME OR WAS IN LOVE WITH ME CAUSE I GETTOLD IM CONTROLING JUST CAUSE I TRIED TO TALK THE PROBLEM OUT AND WORK ON MAKING THINGS RIGHT... INSTEAD OF FALLING THREW WITH THE PROMISES OF THE PAST BEING JUST THAT THE PAST AND WE WOULD SIT AND TALK OUT THE PROBLEMS INSTEAD OF YELLING AND RUNNING AWAY ..... THE PERSON WANTS TO SAY IM A BAD PERSON WELL MAYBE SHE IS RIGHT... BUT THEN AGAIN MAYBE THE ONES THAT WAS TELLING ME AFTER EVERYTHING WENT DOWN WAS RIGHT... THAT SHE NEVER TRUELY LOVED ME AND NEVER WAS IN LOVE WITH ME.... CAUSE TRUE LOVE AND BEING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE YOU WILL TAKE THEM FOR WHO THEY ARE AND IF YOU SAY WHAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST IS JUST THAT IN THE PAST AND THAT YOU WILL TALK THE PROBLEMS OUT YOU DO JUST THAT..... I HAD ADMITED I FUCKED UP AND SAID THE WRONG WORDS THAT HAS CAUSED ALL THE PROBLEMS WHAT MORE CAN I FUCKING DO OR SAY OTHER THEN THE WOMAN THAT TOLD ME SHE WAS IN LOVE WIHT ME AND I WAS HER WORLD AND SHE WANTED TO BE WITH ME AND WOULD FALL APART IF SHE LOST ME AGAIN IS STILL THE ONE IM IN LOVE WITH AND WANT TO BE WITH BUT IT DONT MATTER ANYMORE CAUSE WELL THERE ARE PEOPLE ON HERE THAT HAVE MADE SURE TO GET IN THE MIDDLE OF IT INSTEAD OF SAYING TO HER TO FALLOW HER HEART BUT THEN AGAIN I BELIVE I WAS NEVER IN HER HEART TO BEGIN WITH BUT SHE IS IN MINE AND ALWAYS WILL BE
I SIT HERE DAY IN AND DAY OUT THINKING OF YOU AND WISHING HOW I HAD YOU BACK IN MY ARMS. YOU LEFT JUST CAUSE I MADE A MISTAKE AND SAID SOMETHING THAT WAS TOOKEN THE WRONG WAY TO SOMEONE ELSE. INSTEAD OF BE UNDERSTANDING AND LET YOU COOL DOWN I KEEP TRYING AND TRYING TO GET YOU TO TALK TO ME SO WE COULD WORK IT OUT BUT NOW YOUR GONE AND MY LIFE IS SO EMPTY AND MEANINGLESS. I DO LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL AND NOR WILL I WALK AWAY OR GIVE UP ON ONE DAY US TALKING AND WORKING THINGS OUT. BUT UNTILL THE DAY COMES I WILL BE SITTING IN THE DARKNESS WIHT THE MEMOREIS OF HOW HAPPY WE WAS GOING THREW MY HEAD AND THE TEARS OF BLOOD RUNNING DOWN MY FACE. I STILL CAN FEEL YOUR SOFT LIPS WHEN I WOULD KISS YOU AND FEEL YOUR LIGHT TOUCH ACCROSS MY ARMS AND BACK TELLING ME IT WILL BE OK . I STILL HEAR THAT HEAVENLY VOICE IN MY EAR WHISPING I LOVE YOU MORE THEN ANYTHING AND I WOULD FALL APART IF I LOST YOU. BUT AS I LOOK AROUND YOUR NOT THERE SO I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE ALL I KNOW I WILL BE YOURS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE NO OTHER WILL TOUCH ME LIKE YOU DO AND DID AND I WILL NEVER LOVE ANYONE ELSE.
WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES THAT IS TRUE AFTER ALL WE ARE HUMAN AND IT IS IN OUR NATURE TO MAKE MISTAKES .. BUT SOME PEOPLE THEND TO THINK THAT IT IS OK FOR THEM TO MAKE MISTAKES AND BE FORGIVIN BUT WHEN THINGS GET ROUGH CUASE OF SOMETHING THE PERSON THEY ARE WITH DID THEY WALK AWAY.. THEN SAYS THE JUST WISH THEY COULD HAVE SOMEONE THAT WILL BE THERE FOR THEM AND STAND BESIDE THEM WHEN THE PERSON THEY JUST WALKED AWAY FROM WAS THAT PERSON THAT WOULD ALWAYS AND IS ALWAYS THERE FOR WHEN THEY NEED THEM AND NOT WALKING AWAY NEVER DID EVEN TRY WALKING AWAY. AND YES IM SURE THERE IS ALOT OF PEOPLE THAT KNOW WHO I AM TALKING ABOUT AND I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR THAT ANGEL FROM HEAVEN THE ONE THAT STOLE MY HEART SO MANY YEARS AGO NO MATTER THE ROUGH TIMES WE HAVE HAD AND THE BAD THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN DONE I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE WAITING WITH OPEN ARMS SHE IS MY WORLD MY LIFE MY EVERYTHING.. I SCREWED IT UP AND I AM PAYING THE PRICE OF TODAL DARKNESS AND EMPTYNESS CUASE WHEN I AM AROUND HER IM FULL OF LIGHT AND HAPPYNESS NOTHING COULD GET TO ME... I JUST HOPE ONE DAY SHE WILL SEE IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE AND WILL ALWAYS BE HERE WAITING WITH OPEN ARMS AND THAT IM NOT GOING TO WALK AWAY IM JUST GOING TO KEEP PROVING SHE IS MY WHOLE LIFE AND WOLRD EVEN IF IT KILLS ME .... I JUST HOPE ONE DAY IT WILL HAPPEN BUT UNTILL THEN I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP AND IM GOING TO SHOW HER THAT I MENT I AM HERE TO STAY FOR HER AND I WILL DO WHAT IT TAKES EVEN IF IT DOES MEAN ME DIEING ALONE
I SIT HERE LOOKING AT THE PROMIESES YOU MADE TO ME. YOU PROMISED ME THAT NOT MATTER THE SITUATION YOU WOULD SIT AND TALK IT OUT WITH ME. YOU PROMISED ME THAT YOU WOULD NOT RUN IF WE STARTED HAVING PROBLEMS.YOU ALSO PROMISED ME YOU LOVED ME AND IN LOVE WITH ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND SOUL. BUT CAUSE I FUCKED UP YOU WOULDNT TALK TO ME ABOUT IT AND YOU WALKED AWAY. THEN YOU STARTED TELLING PEOPLE THAT YOU DONT LOVE ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART AND SOUL NOW. I STILL TELL EVERYONE TO THIS DAY THAT IM TODALY IN LOVE WITH YOU AND THERE IS ALMOST NOTHING IN THIS WORLD I WOULDNT DO FOR YOU. THERE ARE TWO THINGS I WONT EVER DO . I WILL NOT STOP LOVEING YOU OR BEING IN LOVE WITH YOU. NOR WILL I EVER GIVE UP ON US WORKING THINGS OUT AND US BEING US AGAIN. I STILL REMEMBER YOU MADE ME LISTEN TO AND LOOK AT THE WORDS TO THE SONG " HALO" AND TOLD ME THAT THE SONG SAID IT ALL ON HOW YOU FELT ABOUT ME. THAT I TOOK THE WALLS DOWN AND YOU DIDNT EVEN PUT UP A FIGHT AND THAT I WAS YOUR SAVEING GRACE YOUR ANGEL. AND I WAS EVERYTHING YOU NEEDED AND MORE AND YOU WAS NEVER GOING TO LET THAT GO NO MATTER WHAT. BUT NOW YOU HAVE SHUT ME OUT AND LET OTHERS FILL YOUR HEAD WIHT STUFF MAKING YOU NOT LISTEN TO THE HEART. I WILL BE THE FRIST TO ADMIT I FUCKED UP ON NOT PAYING ATTETION TO WHAT AND HOW I WAS SAYING THINGS. YOU CANT SHUT OFF OR GET RID OF THE LOVE YOU SAID YOU TRUELY HAD FOR ME IF YOU TRUELY DID HAVE THAT KIND OF LOVE FOR ME. BUT YOU ACT LIKE YOU DONT LOVE ME NOR WAS YOU IN LOVE WITH ME. IF YOU WAS I
WHY DO I EVEN TRY WHEN I TELL YOU HOW I FEEL IT MAKES YOU SMILE BUT YOU STILL WALK AWAY AND TELL OTHERS THAT YOU WANT SOMEONE THAT LOVES YOU FOR YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE AND IM STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU . I KNOW IM JUST A GHOST AND NOTHING I SAY CAN BE HEARD... BUT THE TRUTH BE TOLD IM NOT A GHOST I AM REAL I BLEED WHEN CUT AND HAVE PROVED IT ... I DO SHED TEARS WHEN DOWN. I WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND WAITING WITH OPEN ARMS BUT IT MIGHT BE TO LATE WHEN THAT DAY COMES. CUASE I MAY ALREADY BE GONE AND I NKOW I WONT BE MISSED AT ALL NO TEARS WILL BE SHED FOR THE LOST OF THIS BLACK WOLF.. I AM TO EVIL TO BE MISSED. I AM ALWAYS IN TEARS AND HEART IS BREAKING APART FROM BEING SHATTERED. I AM SO READY FOR THE PAIN TO GO AWAY AND THE HEART TO STOP BEATING.. I CANT KEEP GOING KNOWING THE ONE THAT I LOVE MORE THEN ANYTHING IN THIS UNIVERISE THINKS IM THE WROST AND MOST EVILIST ALIVE.. I HAVE BEEN THERE WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS AND TRYED TO SHOW THE LOVE YOU DESERVE BUT I SCREWED THAT ALL UP SO IT IS TIME FOR ME TO TAKE THE LONG DARK SLEEP. IT IS THE ONLY WAY TO MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY AND TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT AGAIN
