Just sit right back, and you'll hear a tell you a tale....
So here's the deal. I never cried wolf sorta speak. I truly am unhappy
here these days. Maybe its the fact i put too much into this place
and don't get back what i used too? Maybe i'm just bored with the whole system?
I won't deny i'm a bit Bi-polar when it comes to this site. (No disrespect to the people who have it)
I've had a rough week on here, and Saturday came to a crashing halt. I actually did
go to Fubar support and ask them to delete my page. They told me how to do it. When your Godfather it isnt as easy
as you think. And if it got deleted today, i truly wouldn't be too upset.
I have a big few months coming up, and don't want to be wondering what i'm missing on Fubar.
Some of you are unhappy with me. Some think i fake leaving to get attension. Believe what you want.
That's not me. If i want to be noticed, i'll mumm or make some outragious picture to leave as a comment.
Yes, when i hit a wall, i take down all my pictures, and leave for awhile. It's
what i do, its not just for you people. It's for me too. I like to think i could
give this place up. But i can't quit smoking. What makes me think i can give this place up?
One of my big problems, which to you might sound silly and childish, is that the site has
changed in my opinion. Those who really know me, know i hate the shoutbox. I'm not a guy who
will sit and chat with you for hours. I do my talking on your page. I feel Fubar has become a shoutbox
heaven, and if you don't use it, people think your a snob, or a dick. It's a Cubby thing. So when i leave
200 comments to everyone one of my friends, and get 22 back. (Yes i counted). I feel what i do, and want
from Fubar is different than everyone else. I'm sorry i don't talk to you, i'm sorry i'm not always here
for everyone. I just want to give my comments, get some back and be on my merry way. I'm weird huh?
I lost it the other night. Truly lost it. And there is nothing i can do to change that. I'm moody,
i'm grumpy, and sorry, but its how i've been for awhile now. Some of you think you know why i went crazy,
but your wrong. I have been hating Fubar for a few weeks now. I have gotten a few angry people over this,
and i respect that. You wanna take me off your list, ok. You wanna hate me fine. It's too bad, but i deserve it.
I think people get upset when i go all emo like this, is cause they think i don't care what happens to them.
Well, if they knew me, they'd know thats untrue. I care about alot of people on this site like real friends. And
just cause i'd leave for awhile, doesn't mean i don't still care about them. God, that pisses me off. Ya, i'm a hothead,
but i'm not shallow. :(
So who knows what will happen. Fubar might read my mail and delete me. Might not. If it happens, i'll be back. How
could i stay away? But for now. Let me get my mind straight. I'm not prefect, and will screw up many times. This one was
just so public. Love me, hate me, whatever. I'll slowly try and start luving this place again. But it won't be over night.
Sorry for those i pissed off. Thanks to the people who kept coming to check on me. I'm fine.
Congrats, you have just completed the longest Cubby blog ever. Pat yourself on the back. Cause you
win no prize. LOL.
PS, Delete me, or start leaving comments damnit. Hehe
And this is not a mumm, so my grammar, or speeling don't count.
