It would be so easy just to give in to take my pills and drink my booze and let them ease all my fears... to sink into forgetfulness the absence of all emotion. thoughts, feelings, actions stilled. no fear, no pain, no sorrow just peaceful rest. to go to sleep and never wake up. It would be so very easy... But because it is so easy that is precisely the reason why I will not take it. I've never been a quitter and I'm not going to start now. not yet not without a fight. not when the stakes are so high Life... or Death.