Funny how silence can effect you that much isn't it, what amuses me is what I find important is insufficant to others,
In all honesty I do not think it is possible to really know someone. I don't think there is anything called happiness, I don't think there is anything known as truth anymore, There is no meaning behind the words, there is no feeling when they are spoken, and love can be alot of things, but hardly ever true, let alone real.
I am not amused by anyone or anything, I've seen to much crap, I've heard to much, and I've felt to many untold secrets.
I've pretty much become immuned to lies now, I am starting to see how theres no such thing as honesty anymore. People lie their way through life, feeding on the weak, lying, cheating, and scaming their way through life. I have no friends, or should I say no one I can really count on. I don't talk to anyone in real life or online of great importance. I am not looking to get to know someone. I don't want to hear someone elses sob story and they sure as hell don't need to know mine.
If everything you ever wanted is at hands reach why do you need more. Funny how you think you have all you've ever wanted and it turns out to be a lie. I have learnt one thing throughout my
life, and that is.. you can give yourself to someone 100% and you can treat someone the same way as to how you would like to be treated, and you can love someone the way you would want to be loved, and you can be the bestest friend you can be and expect the same in return.. but does that mean that you are going to get it back three fold? no sir. That used to be the rule, Good things come to those who wait so to speak?...
My theory is, you are fucked from the get go.
Human beings are out for themselves, it's a rat race and some times I feel like Im the peice of shit that sitting on the side lines, just waiting to get fucked over, time and time again.
