Kendra Bush's blog: "Everyday"

Dear Hate, 
I wish I could go back to the beginning when all this started.

When I first meet u everything was great, as they always are.

I wish I could erase all the memories cuz it hurts too bad to think bout them and know things will never be like that again, not only wit u but probably wit no one else either.

I wish I coulda prevented all the things that permanently scared us and our relationship.

I don't think I ever felt so many emotions in the whole time Ive known u.

The good ones were good and the bad ones were horrible.

I wish I didn't have any regrets, but this journey is full of them, along wit a lot of pain and tears from the unfortunate lies and cheating...

I wish I could over look all the negative things and see all the good.

But, the truth is, when I look u in ur eyes all I see is pain and unhappiness staring me right back in the face wondering when I'm still here, why I'm trying to live this impossible life we've dreamt up together.

I wish I woulda known all this before..

I wish I didn't still love u as much as I still do.

I don't wanna think bout u forever, but ur forever locked in my heart and no matter how many times I try to push u out, the harder it is to forget u.

I really wish u woulda respected me, then maybe I would feel the love I needed to from the beginning.

But, I think the number one thing I wish is I didn't waste so much time and effort into us.

I'm not gonna cry any more tears for u..

When God says no to something, he says yes to something better.

So, its time to hold my head up high and know deep down I tried everything I possibly could to make us work.

If it wasn't good enough thats ur problem, not mine.

So, I guess this is good bye..

Good bye to the drama, good bye to the pain, and good bye to the tears..

It's time to let go.