cutekitty6969 Family Member Canadian C...'s blog: "side of me never seen"

I toss and turn not being able to sleep Wondering why i am alone I have everything to offer someone but yet am still alone I don't let anyone get close as i fear i may get hurt something i know i can never have that thing is love someone to love me for me to accept me for my faults and weaknesses to all i smile on the outside and say "i'm doing okay" but inside all i want is love and to not be alone i have put up a wall so my heart won't feel pain but long for the time when someone will tear down that wall and tell me "i love you just the way you are"

My heart aches, the tears flow as i sit alone in the dark I'm the tough girl who can deal with anything yet the one thing i fight to deal with is being alone My guard is up, i tred softly as not to scare anyone away The more i feel comfortable, the guard comes down and i tred loudly only to be once again alone What is about me i ask myself? Am i too open, too honest, too ugly, an embarresment? I ask myself these questions every night as i sit alone in the dark