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Tô fazendo amor com outra pessoa
Mas meu coração, vai ser pra sempre seu
O que o corpo faz a alma perdoa
Tanta solidão, quase me elouqueceu
Vou falar que é amorVou jurar que é paixão
E dizer o que eu sinto com todo carinho
Pensando em você
Vou fazer o que for e com toda emoção
A verdade é que eu minto, que eu vivo sozinho
Não sei te esquecer
E depois acabou, ilusão que eu criei
Emoção foi embora e a gente só pede pro tempo correr
Já não sei quem me amou
Que será que eu falei?
Dá pra ver nessa hora que o amor só se mede
Depois do prazer
Fica dentro do meu peito
Sempre uma saudade
Só pensando no teu jeito
Eu amo de verdade
E quando desejo vem
É teu nome que eu chamo
Posso até gostar de alguém
Mas é você que eu amo
Vou falar que é amor
Vou jurar que é paixão
E dizer o que eu sinto com todo carinho
Pensando em você
Vou fazer o que for e com toda emoção
A verdade é que eu minto, que eu vivo sozinho
Não sei te esquecer
E depois acabou, ilusão que eu criei
Emoção foi embora e a gente só pede pro tempo correr
Já não sei quem me amou
Que será que eu falei?
Dá pra ver nessa hora que o amor só se mede
Depois do prazer
The sun beating on my skin reminded me of you
I remembered how once we were
For a brief second I was happy again
I wondered
Do I ever cross your mind
You are always on mine
Do you ever dream of me
You are often in mine
It is just too bad we fell apart
I thought we were meant to be
Forever was what I thought
I wonder where you are
I have all of our pictures
The pieces are in a box
Good show
How I wish you would call
If you need me sooner than later don’t worry I am still here
If you miss me just turn around
I am still the same person, I haven’t changed
I am not in the clouds as you might have heard
I have always missed you and longed to hear your voice
If you haven’t forgotten me don’t worry I feel the same
Where there once were flames you will certainly find heat
I still love you
I have always thought of you
I have never forgotten you
Whenever you feel lonely
You need love or a friend
You can count on me to comfort you
Whenever you are in doubt
Your heart troubled with worries
Don’t ever forget you have me
Count on me through thick or thin
If one day you realize that you need love
And it is me you want
I will be here
If I must confess:
I drink too much coffee
I really don’t care for team sports
I might have been unfaithful
I don’t play well with others
I don’t like jewelry
Honestly:
No one loves you as I do
You might not care
If I must confess:
I never go to bed at the same time
I don’t like to floss
I don’t remember the last time I cried
I love grey skies
Nothing has been easy in my life
You know that
You know me enough
Without you, life is bland
Sometimes I get tired of all this
Every day is Groundhog Day
I have never forgotten you
Loving you is inevitable
I have always known
When you are going to criticize
Start with yourself
Situations changes
It is not always a bad thing
There is hope
You don’t have to say it
I have always known
You ……
I will find a way
Tracie M: not, what i hate and have rold you is how people mcome into my life, act like they care and rthen djisappear, and what to know why i get upset
spartukus03: this is how I look at it Tracie. I approach you and talk to you, attempt to talk you at a later time and get the perception that you are busy or don't want to talk to me at the moment so I just let you be and sort of wait for you to contact me... months later when you haven't contacted me I try to say hello again...... but if you categorize me as one of those people who come in your life pretend to care and then disappear... that is too bad because that isn't me.... and since those people bother you and I am in that category I will be sure not to do it again
Tracie M: reality is i dont leave my house and i dont talk to anyone anymore, so that is fine, you r better off that way forgetting you ever talked tome, i am not worth a poen ny
spartukus03: that is certainly not the case Tracie... I don't talk to you because I am better off talking to you, it isn't because I want something from you. I talk to yo because I simply have enjoyed talking to you... and the only reason I mentioned I think I should stop altogether is because you seemed to have categorized me in the group of people who come in, pretend to care, then leave... I don't think that is me specially if you stop to think when was the last time you wrote me or text me or contacted me compared to how often I have tried to contact you..... but since I am in the category of people who bother you then i don't want to bother you
Tracie M: then dont because i have nithing to offer anyoine
spartukus03: that is what I am trying to say
spartukus03: I don't care what you have to offer
Tracie M: ok,hen it is simple
spartukus03: it has never been about what you have to offer
Tracie M: i have nothing to offer period
spartukus03: don't you think that there might be people out there who aren't out to get things from others?
Tracie M: i just want to be out of this world, plain and simple
spartukus03: who simply enjoy engaging other people, sharing ideas, and experiences?
spartukus03: you want to be out of this world huh? that is a real shame
Tracie M: now really, i have been doing alot ofmthinking nand nthat is my goal, just getting my anumals a place to live,
spartukus03: that is just too bad, but if you have your mind made up, who am I to try to change it
spartukus03: after all, you don't think I actually care so anything I say will be in vain
Tracie M: you cant, a peraon can only hadnle so much pain and huet and i hit myine
spartukus03: no, a person can endure so much more... no one has ever died from a broken heart
spartukus03: people have given up because of a broken heart
spartukus03: or because of the pain and hurt you are talking about
spartukus03: but that is because they gave up
spartukus03: I suppose I just think differently
Tracie M: AND I HAVE GIUVEN UP
spartukus03: yeah I gathered that, and that is why I think it is shame, and why I won't try to change your mind....
spartukus03: but I will tell you that if you need me I am here for you as much as possible and have always been
spartukus03: you just never reached out
Tracie M: i have tried for 2 yrs, and veryone think i can just stop hburtong, how fucking funny that is, if life was that easy, we wouldnt all be running around hating each other m0re and more, but for me, i try and try and try and ni just keep getting hurt no matter what approach i take, i am just over no skleeping, no eatong, not caring, cant even get out of bed, and so many tears, life isnt suppose to gurt like this
Tracie M: and i am tird of talking about it, it fixes nothing
Tracie M: becuaae you had a woman, and as much as i could have fucked with that, i didnt
spartukus03: you are a better person then that
Tracie M: yes i am, and that is why i qm akone
Tracie M: becuase no one wants a good woman
Tracie M: they want drama,games, and whatever else, i stipped trying to figure it out a long time ago why i get to pay for being a good woman
spartukus03: because you are a good person and a good woman, men have taken advatage of that... it isn't your fault
Tracie M: yes it is, because i let them, i want to be carewd aBOUT, THEY SEE THAT, AND USE UT, FOR WHAT A PIECE OF ASS, TOO SEE MY CRY, IF I KNEW THE ANSWERS WHY MAYBE IT WOULDNT HAPPEN
spartukus03: when some one is happy with who they are they don't need some one else to make themselves feel better..... maybe you just need some time off be alone... maybe away from men altogether
spartukus03: I don't want to make it seem like I know the answers
spartukus03: God knows I don't
spartukus03: and I would never offend you in that way by assuming I know what is wrong or that I know how you feel
spartukus03: I simply don't
spartukus03: but there is one thing I believe to be true
spartukus03: and that is where there is a will there is a way
spartukus03: if your will is to end your life... you will do that
spartukus03: if your will is to live life
spartukus03: you will do that too
spartukus03: if your will is to stop hurting, and feeling all this pain... you will find the way to do that
spartukus03: you said you have tried it in many different ways
spartukus03: but tell me something
spartukus03: have you tried being alone?
spartukus03: or simply being away from men
spartukus03: because to me (from the little I know) men are the cause of most of your pain
Tracie M: I BEEN WUTH TWO GUYS SINCE OCT LAST YR
Tracie M: IS THAT LONG ENOUGH, I AM LONEKY, YOU THINK IT IS EASY
spartukus03: I am sure it is not
Tracie M: i still have needs, and i stilll want to be held and kissed and toiuched
spartukus03: I understand that
spartukus03: but those needs you have are temporarely fulfilled by men who don't care
spartukus03: and that in the long run hurt you more
spartukus03: I bet they hurt you more now then the pain you feel by being alone or not having those needs you speak of fulfilled
Tracie M: no worries, it wont wver hapopen again
spartukus03: I am afraid the reason it won't happen again isn't because things got better
spartukus03: but you have made up your mind
spartukus03: for what it is worth, some guy that you never really met actually cared, and enjoyed your company even if just over the internet
spartukus03: I hope you find the peace, and happiness you search
Tracie M: there is no peace on this earth, and dont worry, you will forget my name very soon,
spartukus03: I beg to differ in all counts
spartukus03: There is peace on this earth
spartukus03: I do worry
Tracie M: then you will have agood nlife, mine is doine
spartukus03: and I will never forget you or your name
Tracie M: will please do, because you cant help me
spartukus03: I know that
spartukus03: I already told you
spartukus03: I just wanted you to know that at one point in your life you did meet some one who cared
spartukus03: who noticed what was happening from a far
spartukus03: and just shared some sentiments with you
spartukus03: learned from knowing you
spartukus03: and
spartukus03: took your advises in matter he felt you knew more about life then he did
spartukus03: there Tracie you touched the life of one person in this earth... you are free to go
Tracie M: THANKS, JUST HOPE I AM WITH THE ONLY THINGS THAT LOVED ME,Y ANIMALS
I wanted you. I wanted you to know we could have been perfect. We had all the right qualities. We looked perfect from a far, when you looked closely we fell apart.
You said I stopped caring, you could not be further from the truth. I cared than and I care still. In reality we were not who we thought we were. Yet I love you.
You took my strength turned it into greed, shallow dreams, selfishness and made it my weakness. You throw my weakness on my face. I loved you because I thought you were the same.
You said I hurt you, I never intended to do so. To you that was worse than intentionally doing it. I guess you saw it as if I did not care enough to see that the things I did hurt you. You deliberately took stabs at me and hurt me often going after things I trusted you with, things you knew would hurt me. I do not know what is worse.
I watched you slowly kill yourself one pill at a time. I watched helplessly. Any thing I said or did was not right, it was not good enough. After all what did I know? I had never been in your shoes. It must have been easy to watch some one you loved deteriorate. Forgive me for not needing those things. Once again, my strength was a source of weakness. It is easy for some one who never tried it to say "just stop" although I never said that.
The other day I saw a girl that reminded me of you. Her skin looked like yours. The scratch marks were visable. I wondered what the scars that once cannot see has done to her soul. She seemed scared and paranoid as if she knew some one was praying on her. She needed her fix. I wanted to approach her but I couldn't.
Not that you are well, you no longer need me. So you curb me and turn my strength into weakness and throw them in my face.
We could have been great. I loved you with all my heart. I hope you take chances in your life, recoop the time you've lost, dance in the rain, find some one you can't live without and never settle for some one you can live with.
I called you yesterday but you didn’t answer,
I wonder where you were; I wonder why didn’t you call?
I am here all alone with nothing going on.
I have to find a cure to this epidemic; Something strong enough to kill the mundane.
I am tired of this mental masturbation; I need something better for my stimulation.
Mental masturbation
It is killing me
If this is the norm
I don’t want to fit it
Today I woke up a little out of it; today I woke up in one of those moods
I turned on the radio to find something good
I got caught up listening that those same corny lyrics
Those lyrics that drives me crazy
They talk about how great they are; without realizing they spit in their plate
Today you are on top, tomorrow you might not
Spinners on your Escalade, grills in your mouth
Ho’s and bitches, money and power
Mental masturbation
To be able to be free you have to learn how to leave the things that trap you in.
You have to understand what trapped you; learn how to walk away
We are all free to do what we want
Don’t be trapped by the mundane
That is not rebellion, its mental masturbation
Start a revolution
Let the world know you have a unique thought
Realize you are a small fish in the vast ocean
There is more to the world then Staten Island
Play Station 3, Xbox
Dungeon and Dragons
MyScape, Facebook, too much hair gel
It is all mental masturbation
I learned that everything changes
The world changes, everything changes
People change; I can change nothing
I change my mind; if I feel like it, if I think it is good for me
I am sick of this mental masturbation
Think for yourself
I don’t need Anderson Cooper, or Bill O’Really
CNN or Fox Networks they are all the same
Oprah, Dr Phill …. Fuck that
Stop, think, analyze
It is mental masturbation
Mental masturbation
It is suffocating me
If this is unique
I don’t want any creativity
What happens tomorrow I don’t know, crystal balls never work on me
I can’t ever do everything the same way, unless I try,
I don’t really try; Try to stimulate my mind
I am not always right, but if you are going to say that, you better be right
I don’t mind the misfortune; a man makes his own luck
Situations change, cease the moment, carpe diem
I live my life my way
Don’t come with your rules, I will break them
I don’t conform to your norms, what is normal?
I just have a different train of thought
You think I am out cast, I think it is bullshit
Life is too short to get caught up in this mental masturbation
I just want to be me
You are the one who doesn’t
I called your yesterday; where did you go?
I wish I could have found it, just to say hi.
I wanted to stimulate my mind.
Life re-starts everyday, so learn how to accept another chance
Laugh at the world, or it will laugh at you
This is masturbation for the brain
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I dreamed of this day, where everything was perfect and nothing could go wrong
It was a beautiful mid-summer night
we were in a dark secluded place
there we stood
the night was beautiful
the stars were plentiful
the fire works were beautiful
there we stared into the night
you were with me
Dinner was amazing
the cozy restaurant was perfect
the pillows made it even more welcoming
as I sat next to you
the world was perfect
talking to you
enjoying the wine
touching you ever so lightly
He can’t feel the pain
The wounds have turned into scars
the scares make his skin thick and numb to the pain
This makes a man hard
It makes him cold
The world loses its taste Morality, civility is all irrelevant
Can’t feel the pain, do not fit in
The sweltering jungle calls his name, the mosquitoes miss his thick cold blood.
The sky does not let rain pour; there is no reason to, he is not there.
The ground begs for his sweat. The desert is empty without him; it needs him. The dust storms go unnoticed. The sun has no one to bake. The inches of shadows found under a large boulder goes wasted. He is no there.
The cold misses his cold blood. The frigged air has no one to cut and cause blisters. His skin can’t be cracked. The snow can’t melt about him; it can’t blind him with the reflections off of its surface. The morning cold misses the sound of his bone snapping and his joints popping.
He can’t feel the pain
His wounds have turned into scars
The scars have made his skin thick and numb to the pain
He does not feel the pain
Nothing will ever be the same.
