She called today.... i had to send her some money.....
Funny last week my ex calls to say happy holidays, and needed money for gas to see his son.... so i sent it. He called today and wished me a belated birthday greeting, and we talked for 2 hours, it was good. His mom is gonna move in with him, i might have ta help her make the move. He still cant see his son as much as he would like, the ex before me hate him... His girlfriend is home from the circus, but his roommates said she can't stay there so he has to drive 3 hrs to see her, not unlike the 4.5 to see his son. He's sad and that makes me even more sad.
I sent him and Isaiah a package for Christmas... I was the only person who SENT a gift, and his girlfriend was the only other person to call him aside from me. Boy i sure am a cool ex girlfriend....
...will i be able to be that cool with her? I'm sad. Shes young, newly 21, and i just can't believe that she knows who she is right now. how much experience does she have? not much...who am i to hold down an other human being for the sake of MY own feelings? We are free to do what we will do, but it's difficult to maintain some thing that has no lines..... hence the people are strange....
I want her to enjoy her life, and not have restraint from thousands of miles away. I want her to grow up and be herself, and not what someone else wants her to be. I want to always be a part of it... but i don't want to be in the way of it either.
