SweetirishGrl's blog: "shauna's shit"

I been sittin' here starin' At the clock on the wall And I been layin' here prayin' Prayin' she won't call It's just another call from home And you'll get it and be gone And I'll be cryin' And I'll be beggin' you, baby Beg you not to leave But I'll be left here waitin' With my heart on my sleeve Oh, for the next time we'll be here Seems like a million years And I think I'm dyin' What do I have to do to make you see She can't love you like me Why don't you stay I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of bein' lonely Don't I give you what you need When she calls you to go There is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way Baby, why don't you stay (yeah) You keep tellin' me, baby There will come a time When you will leave her arms And forever be in mine But I don't think that's the truth And I don't like bein' used And I'm tired 'a waitin' It's too much pain to have to bear To love a man you have to share Why don't you stay I'm down on my knees I'm so tired of bein' lonely Don't I give you what you need When she calls you to go There is one thing you should know We don't have to live this way Baby, why don't you stay (yeah) I can't take it any longer But my will is gettin' stronger And I think I know just what I have to do I can't waste another minute After all that I put in it I've given you my best Why does she get the best of you So next time you'll find You wanna leave her bed for mine Why don't you stay I'm up off my knees I'm so tired of bein' lonely You can't give me what I need When she begs you not to go There is one thing you should know I don't have to live this way Baby, why don't you stay, yeah

"Chasing Cars" We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or anyone If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words Are said too much They're not enough If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads I need your grace To remind me To find my own If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world? Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I'll Be Waiting He broke your heart He took your soul You're hurt inside Because there's a hole You need some time To be alone Then you will find What you always know I'm the one who really loves you baby I've been knocking at your door As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting Whenever you need me, I'll be there I've seen you cry Into the night I feel your pain Can I make it right I realized there's no end inside Yet still I'll wait For you to see the light I'm the one who really loves you baby I can't take it anymore As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting Whenever you need me, I'll be there You are my only I've ever known That makes me feel this way Couldn't on my own I want to be with you until we're old You have the love you need right in front of you Please come home As long as I'm living, I'll be waiting As long as I'm breathing, I'll be there Whenever you call me, I'll be waiting Whenever you need me, I'll be there

Numb I'm tired of being what you want me to be feeling so faithless lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me put under the pressure of walking in your shoes [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] every step that I take is another mistake to you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] I've become so numb I can't feel you there become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you can't you see that you're smothering me holding too tightly afraid to lose control cause everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] every step that I take is another mistake to you [caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow] and every second I waste is more than I can take I've become so numb I can't feel you there become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you I've become so numb I can't feel you there become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be I've become so numb I can't feel you there Is everything what you want me to be

Do you ever go off into a far away land where nothing that has hurt you yet exists, where you have the sweetest memories surrounding you leaving no room for pain or doubt. Dreams are a gift, of lost time or stolen in some cases. Dreams can keep you alive, sane and ease the pain. They might help you remember why you once believed in yourself and help you to one day stand on your feet again. Its not often I wake up feeling I am still in a dream its kind of sad to be snapped out of such an Odd though needed walk down memory lane.