Sometimes I wonder why & realize I don't like the answer. Then I ask myself how & find more of me then I had known was possible. Sometimes I may not like what I find but I know that I can either stand, fight & change it or just be a coward & walk away. I just have to remember that the easiest paths are not always the best. I also need to keep in mind that the road less traveled may seem appealing but it also may lead to destruction.
Balance is required in all things. We as selfish beings tend to believe that we can always keep ourselves in check, when the reality is that it takes others to help us stay that way. We only see the part of ourselves that we want to see & know. Others see what we keep hidden from ourselves, while constantly trying to fool others that what they see & experience is false about you.
We need others to maintain who we truly are & keep us honest. Be able to look at yourself with respect & love, knowing that the people around you don't confront you about your flaws to judge you but so you know that you have become out of balance. Giving you a chance to change & evolve for the better. Let people in, show them the real you, allow them to see the rawness within & you shall not be disappointed.
Opening up while bearing all isn't easy but maybe getting to know the true you isn't either. The ones willing to stay around unconditionally while you figure it out are the ones worthy of your love & trust. Although be forewarned unconditional love in whatever the form it may take may also mean leaving you alone for a time or for forever. We are meant to support & hold one another up, not take advantage of a loved ones feelings for you.
If you are not willing to change for yourself, then how do you expect others to keep over looking the betrayal you keep committing to yourself & them? If you're unwilling to change & you find yourself living a solitary life, you may need to start asking yourself this question... Has everything that was presented to me by people I loved & trusted, true? If it wasn't true then why am I alone? Be real. Be honest. Be everything you can be for not only yourself but for others as well. Living means sharing, if you're not then you're just alive.
Just my thoughts ~RRJ~