It's so funny how loved can send you soaring high In the air only to let you crashed when the person you loved Is like totaling ignoring you when you know they are on yahoo messenger because you are stealth and see them come on.I'm always stealth till I see a friend come on then I make myself visible to them.So they know that I'm online.I seen my online girlfriend come on so I made myself appeared online for her.She been avoiding me since Saturday.She was on like 10 minutes and not 1 im from her.She logged back out leaving me depressed and wondering whats going on with her too.I mean If a girl gonna tell you she loves you only to avoid you for days and days at a time how does It supposed to work out.I feel like a cheat go between or second best,thats only needed when It suits the other person.And I know I've never treated a girl like too,but yet the nice guy seem to finished last like always In life.Now If I was a player like some of the other guys and only Interested In them for 1 thing she would be knocking my door down.Well enough my depression Is dying to get out so I'll write some more poems to released It now.So here It Is:
Second Best
I was once your true love you confided In me,confessing your love for me.For I once felt true bliss as I read your email you once sent to me,so full of love as you talked of you and me In the future.Of how badly you wanted me for yourself,a true feeling of peace surrounded me and I no longer felt alone In my life.For I had love to share to share myself with,a love that had lifted me from my darkness and onto the lights of hope.But little did I know It would all crashed down upon me as you became colder to me,leaving me alone and heartbroken.Alone to fight the Inner demons of my past,your loving touched no longer there for me.Just a coldness In my heart and soul that I hide from you,for I desire not to let you see me as second best In your life.For second best Is truely what I feel like I've become.
