moo's blog: "Sadly Numb"

I have a strong personality, and my way of loving is through submission. I desire to be used, but not abused. I believe the man is the head of the household, and I am there to please, serve, and walk through life by his side. I have common sense, a sense of pride, and am not afraid to express myself and my desires. I am not silenced, I address my problems, and I refuse to hide from my emotions. I am perfectly able to make my own decisions, but choose not to, I choose to hand myself into the hands of another. I am not helpless, I am not a victim, and my feelings are not wrong. I choose whom holds my heart, I choose who gets that power. I find peace in my submission, my gift. I take pride in myself, and know I am a reflection of him. The Dominant I seek, will be fair, in control, yet not controlling... he will be kind, yet assertive, possessive, but not jealous, or smothering. He will be adventurous, but would never take a risk with me. Into punishment, not abuse. He will respect me, and never use my fears against me. He will assure me at all times. He will not betray me, break my confidence, and have the knowledge and patience to guide me where he wants to take me, take us.

I thought you finally heard me.. cries that could not be denied. Always feeling so lonely, only a pulse tells me I'm alive. Numb and unaware, life just seems so unfair. Where is my place? Why do I hide? Years of salty tears, I have cried. SAD, AFRAID, with thoughts of -----. Friends I once had, no where can I find. Their words once filled me with hopes, withered away, and died. I would rather have had deaf ears, and not heard their misguided lies. Now to each of you, time for me to turn the blind eye. Maybe you will miss me? Or let me go with a simple silent goodbye...