lonewolff's blog: "sad day"

well in my last blog i was mad ,hurt, and few other emotions ill leave out of this one. today tho i feel like the loneliest person in the world. its like the world done past me by. my friends have lives. my enemy have even stopped bothering me. lol. damn this sucks. im so alone. tears stain my pillows, and sadness awaits me every morning. makes me wander wtf am i getting up for. to just sit and stare at the damn walls all day. man just once id like a dropbye, a call just to say hi, a i love u, or anything, im so alone, why? what have i done so wrong that god looks down and says here jer, take a little more u can handle it. but to tell u the truth i dont know if i can. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. im so alone. well im out. like anyone cares noone will read it anyway.

id like to say that today is a good day. but i cant. u see, today i made the mistake of my life, 5 years i thoght i loved a woman. someone i thought was the "ONE" i gave the heart, my soul. and put everything into it. but i guess, sometimes it just doesnt work, and we are slit. i hate her for the hell i been thru, the heartache, the loneliness, and utter destituse, today i hate who i am, i cant be a freind, a loving uncle or, even a loving brother or son. because im just waiting for them to rip my heart out, and stop on the, peices i have left. if u read this and uve been any of those things, just remember, i care for all of u. but i dont know if that other four letter word even has a meaning. ive said in others writings, that its just a way to get close so u can crush. the heart. i really beleive that it is just a word that if u really care for someone they will no. in other news. today is also my dads birthday. i miss u, dad. i wish u were here, to help me figure out the crap thats goin on. u are always in my thoughts, and i will never ever forget u. rest in peace. raymond finley campbell "5-11-46 to4-6-97" gone but never forgotten.