So I have yet again fallen off my high horse and broke yet another new year’s resolution. While counting points daily, giving up sodas, and increasing steps. I’ve become weak.
Those who look they have stepped right off the pages of Vogue or any other high fashion magazine, purge, puke, excessively work out to the point they have no life and or have not had children; I don’t want your advice. Not to sound cynical but obviously you’re not anything like me!
So obviously temptation gets the best of me. It’s a life lesson that many of us fall victim to. Starting off the year; trying to manage points. along with stress, family crisis and an occasional woha of emotion. What woman wouldn’t say they “cheat?”
So it’s apparent to me that I’m perhaps active enough to wear myself out, but not active enough to burn the bulge (loose the ass). It’s quite depressing so the lease. But has me at a rock bottom, searching for, not an easier way. But a more productive way, to begin my reformation.
I guess my reasoning for sharing my story is no other than the self inflicted pity one puts on their selves in my situation.
I could go on and on with justifications to why I feel the urge to just give up. But that would be cowardly of me.
So loneliness caused my ass to grow. Who am I trying to fool?!
Within the past two months I have not only learned that my mother is a diabetic. But I have also come close to loosing my father. Which in return has made me think twice about the excessive soda, wine , chocolates, etc I consume. Not to mention the example I set forth for my children. It worries me so that because not only does a disease grow in my family bloodline, but that this lifestyle in which I feed my children is one that will pass on for generations to my grandchildren.
Since the New Year began. I’ve been changing the way I cook, the things I do, etc. It just doesn’t seem enough. Then again I am one of those people who starve for perfection and are never fulfilled with the outcome of anything I do.
Anyway, I took my oldest daughter grocery shopping for healthy foods. Explored different recipes and it seems like the frowns on not only my children but my better half get the best of me. Am I taking this too far?
I’ve yet to let any other beverage other than water or 100% juice touch my lips.
And I’ve been getting calcium through cheeses, yogurts and lo fat cottage cheese.
But is it right of me to push these changes on everyone who surrounds me?
I’ve recently learned that you can change anything in 21 days. If only they would try to stick to the plan twenty one days would change us for life!
Yet this morning after grumps and moans…those eggs called out everyone’s names.
Now I’m not even a morning eater. But to loose weight you have to start your day out with something to burn. Oatmeal was my game plan…so why did I grab for the skillet?!
Damnit. Is there anything anyone else would like to add to ether feed my ego, push me back into motivation and or help me loose the guilt of it all and keep going?!
