On this last day of 2007 like many others I am making my resolution. This coming year will be different. Not cause I’m swearing off alcohol, woman, or any one of my many other vices. No I am not worried about joining a gym and getting into better shape. My resolution is simple… this year I am making sure that I am number 1 in my life. Nothing and no one will derail me from my goals, dreams, or hopes.
I have come to see that as of right now my past will not be part of my future any more then the foundation of getting older and hopefully wiser. This season I have more or less kept to myself. If you have heard from me then that’s because I felt you needed to know I’ll be around. If you haven’t then either I think you know I’ll be there or I really could care less about you. Whether you’re reading this or not, in your heart you know which applies.
The way I view many things has changed. With my emotions I have to become a bit more heartless. Throughout the years I have always been told I am too nice. It’s true, I am easily taken for granted, unappreciated, and or taken advantage of. It’s time to tighten down and get a better grip on my life. The process has already started and the next step is weeding through who I want and need to be in my life. Many people out there do not deserve the right to be called friend.
If you are reading this and taking offense then the door is open you can walk out anytime you please. This may sound harsh but from now on everything is earned. Trust, friendship, love… EVERYTHING!! If you have done me wrong and not made amends then it is too late to apologize. From this point on there is no second chances once someone had turned their back on me.
MOTTO for the year…
GIVE THEM NOTHING BUT TAKE FROM THEM EVERYTHING!!
(This does not mean I am looking to use anyone but again from now on nothing is given… you must earn what you want or deserve from me)
I am still me. My compassion has not faded but it will be limited. If something or someone is not in my best interest then my door will close. Bars have been set and I will not settle for anything less. I know what I want out of life. I know what it feels like to be loved and to have truly loved. I know how true friends should treat you and vice versa.
DON’T EVER BREAK YOUR OWN PERSONAL RULES. That is the main reason for this outlook and decision for 2008. When you break the rules you set for yourself in life, you let your guard down. It’s your fault when you get hurt. You can try to blame the people that hurt you but in the end you broke the rules.
Well to the people who choose to stick it out with me… I thank you in advance.
Happy New Year everyone and please be very safe tonight.
