Kelevra's blog: "Realization"

my love

 i will love you till the sun burns out

hold you till a new one comes

i love you as fish love the ocean

only breaching for air

you are my world

i will love you till the end of this one

past the edge of the next

what is time?

a way of tracking

of knowing

just how long i will love you

time is past, present and forver

my love for you is timeless

without end

this is how long i will love you

this is what i have learned the hard way. maybe it can help someone not to make the same dreadful mistakes.

a while ago i lost someone extreamly dear to my heart, do due no one but myself. and she left. it wasnt just my love that i scared away, she was my best friend. i was egotistical, stubborn, i had to be right all the damn time, i couldnt sdmit that i was wrong, and this led to arguments. like an addmission of guilt was a sign of weekness or something, its not, its a sign of maturity. and i wasnt right all the time, not even half the time. it was " i am man hear me roar", and it was very wrong. i didnt listen. she would offer advise, her point of veiw, and i was taken as critisizem. i let the little things bother me and get in the way. i would always talk about money, stupid. i brought aggravation from work home, and that was very wrong. the little things she asked me to do, like put another beer in the fridge after i grab one. and i couldnt do that. she told me that other guy came out when i did that, and she was right. but that guy has been killed off for good. documents, bills, cards, everything the name was on, was gotten rid of. i have done alot of soul searching and fixing, i squared things with god, and forgave my bio-mother, for things that happend  26 years is too long to carry a hatred.  and i am myself again. the other guy never to surface again. every remnant of how that person was is gone. i even got rid of my sharks. traded them in for koi. they are strong, but peaceful and humble. the way i was when she and i met many years ago. i am myself again and thats never goin to change again, EVER. i was a fool, an ass, a bastard, any word you can think of would prety much fit. and i am truely eternally sorry. i know words can lose strength, so i pray i get a a chance to prove that i am myself for good.  so what i have learned is this...

1 listen to your women. shes right more than you are.

2 when she offers her oppinion, or point of veiw, try it out.

3 dont bring work home.

4 LISTEN TO HER.

5 remember she is your friend too. she wants to help.

6 addmit when you are wrong.

7 DONT ARGUE, TALK IT OUT.

8 dont do what i did.

9 FORGIVE AND LET GO.

I HOPE THIS HELPS ANYONE WHO READS IT, IF ANYONE WANTS TO COMMENT FEEL FREE TO PLEASE.